camping and stuff

We went camping this past weekend. It was allright .. not great but not bad either. BabyJ was sick so that was the not great part. She didn’t sleep well and had a mystery fever. We kept her on motrin and Tylenol. Sunday morning she woke up happy of course .. cuz we were headed home! But it was relaxing since we didn’t take the boys and very easy … not as much cooking, cleaning, packing etc. But I missed them like crazy .. they love to ride motorcycles and that’s what everyone did while BabyJ and I napped.

The first picture is of the tree that Hijo ran into and down that hill behind the tree is where his dirt bike landed .. He is okay .. but still .....we haven't been out together ONCE where he hasn't wrecked .. in fact he wrecks EVERY time he goes out!!!
The other two pics of our campgrounds .. one up close and one far away



Fighting with Dummy .. the ex. He has the boys for 2 weeks and once again is making shitty decisions. He is such a dumb ass!!! Right now he is at a concert. Nice of him to spend his time with the boys .. o that’s right .. just get a babysitter. I just don’t understand his priorities … I guess a concert is more important!!!!

I’ve been so exhausted lately. It seems like I can’t get enough sleep. No I’m not pregnant …. Maybe I’m having sympathy pains for my SIL .. she is due in January!!!

There is a golf tournament this weekend for my Highschool. It is mostly for the guys but of course one of my friends is rebelling and she has 4some already. I would LOVE to go .. however Hijo is going (we went to hs together . however didn’t date back then) Anyways … we don’t have a babysitter and he had already planned on going .. so .. bummer. Maybe I’ll stop by the golf course w/ BabyJ. Who knows … it seems like we see people from h/s all the time. I just LOVED highschool!!!

My Mom is healing great! Still tired .. but no setbacks on her stroke recovery! I’m so happy for her and for the fact that she can go forward now without having the surgery in her future .. its now behind her and she can continue to rehab and grow stronger! She is planning on taking a driving class at the rehab. That will do wonders for her self esteem!

Aneruism Surgery Successful

Went to the hospital at 7:15 this morning. Why oh why are hospital folk so rude .. not all of them mind you .. but some. Like this guy at the FRONT DESK... hello you are one of the first people see .. and they are obviously stressed and in a situation they don't want to be in. Instead of being an ASS can't you be helpful. If its not your personality then get a new FUCKING JOB. It took me awhile to find out where my mom actually was. Finally found her ... and the first thing my brother says is . ."you know Mom has a 4% chance of dying today" WHAT? So I pretty much ignore him and go to my Mom and hold her hand. She is obviously very anxious and wants some good drugs STAT. Her Doc was very prompt and they came to get her at 7:55 for her surgeryat 8:00 .... I tell her to "have fun" while they are wheeling her into the surgery room. An inside joke as her loving and caring Mom .. my loving and caring Grandmother .. told her to have a good time last night???? hmmmmmm okay. Brain surgery .. fun .. new concept I guess. Funny that my Mom had her stroke on JAn 9th and my Grandma who lives an hour away still hasn't seen her? I don't get how my Mom came from her. My Mom however cookoo at times, has always been very loving, caring, giving all throuhout our lives .. to her children and to her grandchildren. My Grandmother has never even wished me a happy birthday?

So anyways back to the HAVE FUN! that was at 8:00 ... I didn't see her till 2:30 as I was leaving because I had to get home to Hijo to take over watching BabyJ as he had to get some work done today. I ran into my Mom on my way out ... she was finally on her way to the room. But once in the room it would of been another hour of waiting till they would of let us see her. So good timing for me. She only has to stay in the hospital tonight for observance. She is doing fantastic and was so happy that her brain, memory, functions etc wasn't affected.

So I got to spend the day with my Brother. Talking and talking. He and s wife are about 15 weeks pregnant. He is 40 and SIL is 38 .. this is their 3rd child. SIL is a wonderful Mother ..I envy her mothering abilities. Those kids are well loved and know it! So I'm excited for them. But all day he was doom and gloom telling me the P's only have so much longer to live on average and then add a stroke and GBS to the mix .. that just shortens their lives .. I told him I chose not to think about it and didn't want to talk about it. He kept on it all day. very emotionally draning.

So its nice to be home. BigB called from his Dad's to ask about his Grandma .. so sweet. We 3-way called her and that just made his day to talk to her and HEAR for himself that she was the same old Grandma and the surgery went great!

Still miss my Boys. I did get them for a few hours tonight and will get to see them on Mon, Tue & Wed after work for a couple hours. I will pick them up from daycare and bring them here till their Dad gets off work. Any time I can squeeze in with them is awesome for me!

runAWAY

Ok .. MIA … I’ve been asked about blogging. And What happened? Well at work I can’t upload anything to my blog .. I can’t even view it. So this leaves at home time. With 3 kids … there isn’t any ME time .. so there is no blog time.

So .. I’m writing this up at work .. then I’m going to post it tonight at home.

Whats been going on you ask

Littleb turned FIVE. BabyJ turned ONE and BigB turned EIGHT. School ended. I started working from home 2 days per week … and that is DIFFICULT without any help … I get very stressed because nothing gets the attention it deserves. I scramble to Work, feed kids, try and entertain, give naps, feed bottles and clean clean clean. The house is forever messy with us all home. I end up working strange hours especially after the kids go to bed .. which sucks for me. AND I TURNED THIRTY SIX .. blah

The boys are with their Dad for 2 weeks .. so maybe this will give me a chance to catch up .. But I sit there lonely and missing them like crazy. This is just killing me to be away from them. I pick them up on Wednesday for a couple hours .. but then have to return them to the EX …..

Thursday my Mother is having surgery on her brain aneurism. My brother is coming into town and I am taking the day off. IT is supposed to be a minor surgery .. no cuts on her head ..all done via the groin area. Cross your fingers all works out.

Went to the spa on Saturday with my bestest ever friend ever. We chatted for hours and it was so wonderful. Being with her away from the daily stresses was more relaxing then the massage .. not that the massage was bad or anything. It was just great to sit, chat and have coffee, get massages and then come back to reality. Smooches to you BFF …. My heart belongs to you!

June .. what happened to June. Its already on the downside of summer .. I view the year as a big circle .. The summer being on the top …. And now after the 15th of July we are headed back down the rest of the year. And HOT its been so HOT so miserably hot here. I wish for it to be 75 degrees all the time …

We went on our 4th of July camping trip again this year .. however it held much drama for us.

Thursday the 29th of June I worked from home and packed the camper... Plan was to Leave at 2:00ish

We left about 3:30 .. not too bad .. met up at the beginning of the mountain with everyone .. Filled up w/ Gas

BigB decided that he wanted to Ride in our Friend 350,000$ motorhome . it’s about 35 Feet .. they were pulling all the ATV's in their 30 foot trailer attached ...

D (my 8 year old niece) and her friend J rode in there too.

We were coming out of a tunnel and its straight down hill..... We see Sean almost clip a semi w/ the trailer ..... Then our friend calls and states that they have lost ALL THERE BRAKES!!!!!

they have 4 miles of heavy traffic to go to the next run away truck ramp. He is in and out of traffic ... all 70 feet of him .. I'm in hysterics and I think in shock. I'm watching my son in a motor home that is out of control. We lose them around a corner ... then we see them FLYING .. literally all 70 feet in the air as they hit the ramp. I'm screaming .. Hijo is freaking .... its unreal .. I don't know what to do .......

they go 852 feet up the ramp .. then start sliding back down. I'm thinking they are going to roll over the edge ... then it stops ..... and I see the driver get out ... but no kids??? we had pulled over and Hijo was running up the ramp. I had to stay back w/ the kids .. plus I was pretty much in shock. Our friend calls to say the kids are okay and then I see them getting out .....

I lose it right there .. hysterically crying and thanking GOD. What a miracle I had just witnessed ....... when he hit the ramp . he was going 108 MPH .... NO BRAKES!!!

ahhh .... deep breaths. It took about 5 hours to get them back down and the Motorhome is TRASHED. The trailer has nothing wrong with it. But .. that is what insurance is for.



So they stay the night in the town we were closest too ... and then headed home the next day. We drove on to our friends house and made it about 3:30am. Hijo had so much adreniline that he made it just fine. I slept a bit ... but it was hard as I was pretty worked up too.

So all is good ... we are having fun. Then T my 13 year old niece (D's sister) comes running over all bloody and a HUGE bump on her eye and its already black and blue and she can't remember anything. She was riding her little sister's 4wheeler (identical to Littleb's) and flew off ... w/ NO helmet, in a bathing suit and flip flops ... WTF? Anyways .. we showered her off .. she had scrapes everywhere .. they took her to the doc in the small town and they ended up flying her out by helicopter to the biggest town Grand Junction and she had a cat scan .. all is okay . but still a reason to yell at those darn kids as to why they MUST wear a helmet!!!!!!!!!!




So that was amazing eh? I still think I’m feeling the effects of all the emotions .. it kinda put me into a slump .. and I’m trying to dig my way out. I’m just really blah! I always think of things and say .. “I should blog about that” .. but then .. you know I just don’t get the time to type up an entry! I will try harder and make this a priority. Since I’m in a slump .. it might help keeping the blog to get out my feelings a tad ? who knows? I should just see if it’ll help!