7 Months

Baby J turned 7 Months on December 17th

She loves to scream and copy screams. She loves for me to kiss her little lamb and will make me kiss it over and over. She still doesn’t sleep through the night. She totally has everyone’s heart and is just the BEST.

Our 3rd Annual Xmas Parth

3rd Annual Christmas Party


I’m so glad it’s over; however it was overall a success. Lots of drama … lots of tears, cheers and good times. We had over 100 people I’m guessing .. But thankfully not all at once. Our house isn’t that big .. HA

I think we went through more vodka, wine, beer etc then last year. And that was more then the previous year. Last year I didn’t drink …. Cuz of BabyJ .. So this year I was back in action. However, I didn’t do a shot .. Not One .. HEHE! I caught a good buzz and stopped. I think I was done about 10ish .. and didn’t drink another drop of alcohol. I went to bed at 3AM and took ½ an ambien. I left about 30 people with Hijo downstairs. I just couldn’t do it anymore. I woke up about 6:15 am and went and got Hijo … he was passed out in the chair across from Dana .. they were arguing and both fell asleep … classic. He could barely make it up the stairs. He stayed in bed until 1:00. My Mom brought BabyJ home around Noon .. and me and Lou were eating Big Mac’s and Filet Fishes from McD’s … and then we cleaned. Thank God for Lou … she is the only one who stayed and helped w/ clean up. I did the rest all by myself. Hijo was hung over until sometime today .. Eeks … he really needs to watch his intake.

Anyways it was very much like a high school party. Well it was like a mini reunion. Hijo and I went to high school together. His Brother and Wife also went there .. Well I’d say that 75% of the party was high school people. Funny .. and not so funny. Some of them to remain nameless STILL act like they are in high school. Shit .. we are in our 30’s and 40’s yet one “friend” shoved a broken wine glass in my plant. Are you kidding me? Are we twelve? He said .. well that’s where I found it….. so you consciencely put it BACK in the plant …I was speechless (not really .. I gave him an ear full) but still. Cleaning up this year was the worst of all the years. I couldn’t believe the lack of care and disrespect. At this point I’m thinking there won’t be a 4th Annual. I don’t know if I can do it. I do have to say that a bunch of dear friends did try and control the mess and did dishes and changed trash bags for me *dolls I tell ya* … so … some good and some bad. However it seems like most of my “dolls” helped and Hijo’s buddies made the mess and did the disrespect. Go figure.

So I’m still dragging major major Ass. I took a 2 hour nap yesterday … and went to bed early. Got up late .. thankfully I worked from home today. I did over 10 loads of laundry. I cleaned up all the dishes. I took care of 3 kids (BigB had to come home early cuz he has pink eye) Ran to get Hijo his last xmas present, the b’s Dad his stupid xmas present and then stopped by the pharmacy for BigB’s pink eye meds … and bought fried chicken for dinner .. (just couldn’t bare the thought of coming home and cooking on top of my day!)

So here I sit surfing the net, folding clothes and …. Yawning. I’m going up to bed after I finish BabyJ’s 7 month post & picture

Late

Santa picture

Self ............ Breath

take time to breath. I have to keep telling myself this. "Self, breath". It seems like I have not any spare time in my days. Chores, work, kids, husband .. you know the drill.

couple things on my mind.

the story .. backtrack to August 2005

My husband's brother's wife and I were pretty close. We got along great. She developed feelings for another friend Man(boy) and gave me the lowdown after her daughter her caught Man(boy) feeling her up & down. Nothing "else" physical happened that I know of. I don't want to know. One night camping, my niece (her daughter) came to me crying that she saw the Man(boy) touching her Mom inappropriately. She was so upset. I went and got my Hijo to hear the story. I was blown away. Hijo promised his niece that he would take care of it. We waited a bit but then he told his Brother about everything. Shit hit the fan .. SIL was mad at me .. (understandable, I did break her trust, however my husband comes first before anyone) She put me in a tough tough position. I knew if I told my hijo that he would tell his brother, yet how am I supposed to keep a secret from hijo? I can't, won't .. EVER! So I told, he told... BIL was obviously upset. Okay I've been ignored for the past few months. Not invited to the "gang's" functions, pretty much just left the fuck out (not even a tad bitter) So fast forward to Thanksgiving. Some of the "gang" went to a friends about 4 hours away. We stayed home. SIL, BIL and friends all went. Guess who else went .. said MAN (boy) Are you fucking kidding me. THey all went like nothing ever happened??? Okay .... BIL stick your head in the sand its your choice but Come the fuck on. What about your daughter ,, don't you think its a TAD wierd for her. Don't you think she thinks its very strange that he is there as their friend and all is okay now???? Okay I'm 35 and I don't understand. how is a 12 year old supposed to think that this is okay?

So this past Saturday night one of the "gang" had friends over for a couple of bdays. Me and hijo were not invited and actually didn't find out about it till yesterday. One of the friends of the group called to check up on me (LOVE HER) We chatted and she told me that said "Man(boy)" was there too? So I'm ousted because I tell about the emotional infedelity .. but the actual cheaters are okay to be around eachother.... WHAT THE FUCK????????????? I'm confused

so I tell myself, Self ... Breath!!!!!

Okay thought number 2 .... Breath .. deep, large, long deep breaths!!

so I tell myself, Self ... Breath!!!!!

On a positive note. I have the boys this weekend and I'm going to spoil them like crazy with time, love and attention!!!! I'm even thinking that next wknd I'll just keep them with me.Another positive ..
.I get to work from home for the next 2 days and I'm v. excited about it. I just tested connectivity for work and all is a go!!! DANCIN! I think after "work" I'll take the kids to see santa! hopefully I get to the mall and there isn't a line or anything .. cross fingers. If so .. I'll post a picture.

I'm Out
*smooch*

Santa's Outed

Last night BigB asked me if Santa was real or not. WOW this already. I thought they found out at an older age. He is only 7. So I told him that it wasn't if Santa was "real" or not, it is what you choose to believe. To me, Santa is all about Christmas. In order for Santa to come to your house, you have to believe. You don't have to worry about whether or not he is real, but what his spirit means. It means that it is good to believe, to experience the Christmas spirit. To be with family, celebrate, love, eat, be happy. Family ... Christmas is all about family. I wasn't raised w/ religion so to me, Christmas is about Family. It is about giving, and being excited about giving and finding just the right present for that special someone.

I don't buy into the whole consumer part of the holidays. I don't spend a ton of money, but I do try and find the best present for the person. I enjoy the dinner, the time spent together, the look of joy on the kids faces, just family really

So .... I told BigB that if he didn't "believe" in santa, then he wouldn't come visit him .. but he would come visit Me, Hito, LittleB & BabyJ, because we "believe"