Bulletin update ~ Things on my Mind

Family picture .. minus the dog and the step son

• Went to Phoenix for 5 days. Had a fantastic time and it was so relaxing. Got to see my Dad .. he was in a coma 2 wks ago .. so it was great to see him .. ALIVE. He is in chronic pain and was switching pain meds and it made him go into a coma. Very scary and very thankful that he is alive.
• Mom is mentally very ill. This has obviously been very mentally draining. She was with my brother for Thanksgiving and I had to pick her up at the airport today. She drains me so quickly. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to be dragged into her depression yet I know I need to be there for her. She doesn’t want me to be happy. She wants me to drop my family for her??
• Thanksgiving was very nice. We played bingo and pictionary and ate great food.
• Got my Xmas cards all done … (well a few straggelers .. but about 60/75 are out.
• Hijo goes to Chicago for a wedding this wknd. I’m glad I’m not going. I don’t like the bride, the weather will be cold and I’m not ready yet to travel again with an 18 month old.
• While Daddy is gone. BabyJ will be losing her bottle! Go Mommy! The boys will be with the stupid EX dummy. I get them for a few hours on Saturday for my Company’s kid xmas party.
• Shopping for xmas is almost done. Only a few pressies and stocking stuffers to go! Thank God because I’m almost out .. well I am out of money
• BigB had horrible grades .. I’m very upset as he is brilliant .. but obviously LAZY!
• LittleB’s grades were terrific except for his horrible horrible hand writing.
• I still have 71 hours left of leave for the year and that’ll still allow me to carry over 40 hours into 2007. I will have the last 2 wks off of the year to spend with the kids while they are on vacation.
• Been fighting the EX dummy on child support .. he is always late and now wants a reduction. He is a pile of shit. This is also mentally draining and a huge time factor filling out all the paperwork and getting copies of tax returns, paychecks etc. Funny how he wants it reduced cuz I make more then him. I get punished because I can keep a job. He gets rewarded because he is stupid and gets fired over and over.
• Been fighting Hijo’s EX dummy. She is cookoo .. enough said.
• I miss Hijo’s son .. haven’t seen him in a long time and I wonder what he is up to. I would really like a relationship with him. Maybe someday? It breaks my heart that Hijo chooses just to not call him. I want to be with him and he isn’t even my son? Is it a Mom thing or am I just a tad off the rocker too? I have to respect Hijo’s wishes however I have been sneaking money into his checking account  I wish he could spend a bit of the Holidays with us  I just know that if he was allowed to spend time with us .. he would love us as much as we love him and want to be with us. I can’t believe a mother would do that to her child. No matter how much I hate my EX …. He is never bad mouthed to the children. And I never keep them from him.
• MY BFF came over for dinner this past wknd with her awesome boyfriend and it was fabulous! Friends make the world a much better place. Especially her. She is my ROCK! Love to you!
• I can’t stop eating crap. Time to get real and throw away the M&M’s
• It seems like I clean clean clean …I think I’m the only one. I cook, clean, do all the laundry, sweep, mop, and on and on and on. I’m the only one. I even clean dishes that I didn’t use. I leave every morning for work with a clean sink as I can’t have a dirty one before I got to bed …. But when I come home from work its to a very dirty sink  I’m so unappreciated. Woe is Me!!!!!
• Off to bed .. I’m tired
• To leave this on a good note. I was “forced” to work from home tomorrow  Its supposed to snow and I would of hated the commute. Thanks Job! I appreciate it.