4 is perfect!

Could they be any cuter? Look how dark LittleB is. HA .. he tans so well! Great skin!

OMG has life been busy! I have been working out 5-6 times per week.. HardCore. It is the only thing keeping me sane right now with the baby waking up every.2.hours! But I'm not losing weight. I've been working out since June and lost aobut 5 lbs that month and then in Mid July - SIX WEEKS AGO .. I have been doing some serious body toning, cardio, resistence weights ... and running .. or should I say jogging. And I haven't dropped a fucking pound. WTF? My diet is very good .. I"d say about 1500 calories per day. and I'm guessing on an average day my work out is 700 calories burned ... so am I not taking enough calories in? Am I just building muscle and then the weight will melt off in another few weeks .. its been 6 weeks. I'm at a loss!!!!!!!!!!

I need a drink.

So my life consists of taking care of the kids - going to work - working out- coming home - washing bottles, doing laundry, cleaning the house, changing daipers, wiping the little girls but, giving bath/showers, cooking dinner, cleaning up after dinner, sweeping, and tonight I gave both dogs (85 lbs golden and 15 lbs boshit) a bath - cleaning the laundry room as said dogs stunk and somehow managed to skink up the landry room. I'm burning candles at both ends. Thank God I have energy from working out or I'd be a meaner bitch (I'm already a bitch)

I cut off all contact with my snotty SIL - it felt good and sad at the same time. I miss my nieces! I miss my BIL. I miss the family dynamic. but its been a long time since we have had that dynamic soo sad.

My Mom is still having issues and is now going to transfer all of her money to us kids and put her house in all 3 of our names. So so heartwrenching. I don't want her money. I want her to stick around. but this is her way of slowly letting go and doing the financial thing right - before she off's herself. She is done ... I know it. She is just cleaning up so we don't have a mess and getting all the ducks in a row so its easier for us afterwards - at least that part. Its just a matter of time.

My Dad .. he is doing fairly well .. better mentally lately. He might come for a visit for 3 weeks . .unheard of for him. HE is such a wonerful grandfather :) makes me smile. He sucked as a Dad ... I'd rather he be good to my kids now in retrospect! So Awesome!

Going to lunch with my girls tomorrow .. so excited to see them. It sucks we never get together. Life just gets in the way. We are all on oppostie sides of town. A big friggen triangle. Getting together takes time to plan and patience. But its Em's bday. And I owe her a movie soon too .. she took me to my very favorite move eveh .. SATC. We need to go watch it again for hers.

alright hijo is laughing at me because I asked to watch a movie and he put Charlie Wilson's war in and here I am on the computer

*smooch*

We ..are .. alive .. and .. kicking

Hola !!! Welcome back?!? Long time no see!!!

Ketchup ...

MiniJ was born 3/10/08. He looks just like Hijo!!!!! 7 lbs 11 oz 19 3/4" long. Perfect! Awesome! Love Him!!!!

So the labor went well. I will post the labor story!!! Delivery ... was good ... painful. MiniJ .. well he is just perfect.

Older siblings ... love him! No jealousy ..STILL. They are fantastic and just as in love as we are.

School starts in 1 wk 2 days. I will have a 5th grader and a second grader. They, of course are sooo not ready to go back. Its early this year. We have a couple of camping trips planned.

Lets see .. I've been working out .. like crazy with an awesome personal trainer. (its free .. thats the best part) I still have a few lbs to lose .. less then 20 HA! I've just quit breast feeding. Was planning on doing it for 1 month .. then 6 wks .. well I made it 4 months - 3 weeks. Damn proud of myself. I do think however that the last few lbs have been holding on because of that. The verdict is still out since its only been a few days and my boobs STILL hurt. But between my diet and hardcore exercise routine - I'm hoping its that and not my age .. HA .. I turned 38 last month! Yikes.

Okay .. .March - had baby. severe anxiety over baby getting sick. Older kids were sicker this spring then fall/winter combined. Thankfully ... MiniJ was safe! One of the reasons I was breastfeeding for so long. Hijo went to moab for 5 days when MiniJ was 9 days old. Huge anxiety for me .. Post partum and all ... and doing it all alone with 5 kids. Mother *(FDKE(ER!!! actually it was my idea but still ...

April - tubes tied .. yippy. Went very well and not much pain. I have yet to have a period so I'll let you know how that goes .. Promise.

May ... Best friend's wedding. Fabulous - awesome - beautiful - romantic. So so great!

June - back to work ... MiniJ refuses bottle for the most part. STRESS .. GUILT. Hijo at home with 4 kids .. oh the last day of May was the last day of school .. HAHA. Hijo finds a routine and all is good. MiniJ takes bottle during the day and breast at night.

July - turn 38 .. routine for work is going well. Walking daily at work for 35 minutes. Lose a fewl more lbs. 20 year reunion time .. ugh! Start hard core work out routine. Been doing it for 3 1/2 weeks. Losing weight quickly .. but not quick enough for me. Start running at home on days off .. YES you heard me hahahahaha. goal set - run 3 miles without trouble. I'm not there yet. I did go at 6 am on friday. Boobs hurt way too bad to run .. walk fast and jog some but not much. Went about 2 1/2 miles. Very proud. The rest of the weekend.... nurse my poor breasts.

Start back up working out tomorrow.

Smiles - hugs!. pictures to come.

My family is complete!!! WOOT! YAY!!!