Mbaby Maker

October 26, 2009

2009-10-26T14:28:00.004-06:00

I'm BAAACK.

I need the journal .. I need the time. I need the outlet!

So whats been going on!? The kids are incredible. BigB is crazy smart and tall and funny and frustrating. He is messy with his room and his things - clean with his body and hair .. My God the kid would shower 20x per day if I let him.

LittleB is a sportser .. still in soccer and has just decided to play basketball this winter. Remind me to sign him up! He is brilliant and doing fantastic in school. Has a cell phone and texts like a mad man. Loves it.

BabyJ is four and precious and a princess and well behaved and spoiled and smart and just a good good girl. and a girly girl - but can run and jump and throw with the boys.

and Jax .. my little buttercup .. mushy squishy lovey ... make out boy. I will add new pictures.

Hijo and me - well we are hanging in there - day to day , week to week, month to month. Marraige is hard and two type A personalities .. makes it harder.

My Ex .. married and she is a piece of work ... I will be venting about her on this blog I"m feeling it. She sent me a video yesterday about prayer and such. hmmmm how do you take that. She is such a bully and wants to control my life and I find it quite bizarre as I am a controlling type of personality - but my husbands ex - not so much into controlling her life? especially when she is doing a fine job ya know? not thinking that I care all that much about her life either? wonder why she is so interested in mine?

we shall see I have a feeling?

The kiddos

2008-09-17T09:46:00.002-06:00

I've come to realize

2008-09-17T09:43:00.000-06:00

1. I’ve come to realize that my legs are…
getting into rockin shape

2. I’ve come to realize that my job…
is sometimes really fun and exciting

3. I’ve come to realize that I need…
to eat 1000 calories per day if I want to lose the rest of the baby weight

4. I’ve come to realize that I have lost…
my trust and faith in people (why do I keep learning this lesson over and over)

5. I’ve come to realize that I hate…
most of the general public

6. I’ve come to realize that if I’m drunk…
I'll probably puke!

7. I’ve come to realize that money…
\causes anxiety

8. I’ve come to realize that people…
are ignorant

9. I’ve come to realize that I’ll always be…
looking for acceptance

10. I’ve come to realize that I have a crush…
on my husband

11. I’ve come to realize that my mom..
is becoming more and more childlike :(

12. I’ve come to realize that my cell phone is..
addicting - especailly when I forgot it yesterday at soccer practice and I felt naked

13. I’ve come to realize that when I woke up this morning…
I wanted to stay home and snuggle with the baby

14. I’ve come to realize that last night before I went to sleep…
I am still in love with my husband

15. I’ve come to realize I’m thinking about..
our stupid fuking tennant whom I'd like to punch in the face repeatedly

16. I’ve come to realize that my dad…
is proud of me!

17. I’ve come to realize that I get on MySpace…
to check in on my friends

18. I’ve come to realize that today…
I will be happy!

19. I’ve come to realize that tomorrow…
is another day to be happy

20. I’ve come to realize that I really want to…
be the boss of everyone

21. I’ve come to realize that my ex…
has some serious problems

22. I’ve come to realize that I…
Have terrific kids

23. I’ve come to realize that right now…
I'm proud of me and mine!

4 is perfect!

2008-08-20T19:17:00.003-06:00

Could they be any cuter? Look how dark LittleB is. HA .. he tans so well! Great skin!

OMG has life been busy! I have been working out 5-6 times per week.. HardCore. It is the only thing keeping me sane right now with the baby waking up every.2.hours! But I'm not losing weight. I've been working out since June and lost aobut 5 lbs that month and then in Mid July - SIX WEEKS AGO .. I have been doing some serious body toning, cardio, resistence weights ... and running .. or should I say jogging. And I haven't dropped a fucking pound. WTF? My diet is very good .. I"d say about 1500 calories per day. and I'm guessing on an average day my work out is 700 calories burned ... so am I not taking enough calories in? Am I just building muscle and then the weight will melt off in another few weeks .. its been 6 weeks. I'm at a loss!!!!!!!!!!

I need a drink.

So my life consists of taking care of the kids - going to work - working out- coming home - washing bottles, doing laundry, cleaning the house, changing daipers, wiping the little girls but, giving bath/showers, cooking dinner, cleaning up after dinner, sweeping, and tonight I gave both dogs (85 lbs golden and 15 lbs boshit) a bath - cleaning the laundry room as said dogs stunk and somehow managed to skink up the landry room. I'm burning candles at both ends. Thank God I have energy from working out or I'd be a meaner bitch (I'm already a bitch)

I cut off all contact with my snotty SIL - it felt good and sad at the same time. I miss my nieces! I miss my BIL. I miss the family dynamic. but its been a long time since we have had that dynamic soo sad.

My Mom is still having issues and is now going to transfer all of her money to us kids and put her house in all 3 of our names. So so heartwrenching. I don't want her money. I want her to stick around. but this is her way of slowly letting go and doing the financial thing right - before she off's herself. She is done ... I know it. She is just cleaning up so we don't have a mess and getting all the ducks in a row so its easier for us afterwards - at least that part. Its just a matter of time.

My Dad .. he is doing fairly well .. better mentally lately. He might come for a visit for 3 weeks . .unheard of for him. HE is such a wonerful grandfather :) makes me smile. He sucked as a Dad ... I'd rather he be good to my kids now in retrospect! So Awesome!

Going to lunch with my girls tomorrow .. so excited to see them. It sucks we never get together. Life just gets in the way. We are all on oppostie sides of town. A big friggen triangle. Getting together takes time to plan and patience. But its Em's bday. And I owe her a movie soon too .. she took me to my very favorite move eveh .. SATC. We need to go watch it again for hers.

alright hijo is laughing at me because I asked to watch a movie and he put Charlie Wilson's war in and here I am on the computer

*smooch*

We ..are .. alive .. and .. kicking

2008-08-03T19:02:00.002-06:00

Hola !!! Welcome back?!? Long time no see!!!

Ketchup ...

MiniJ was born 3/10/08. He looks just like Hijo!!!!! 7 lbs 11 oz 19 3/4" long. Perfect! Awesome! Love Him!!!!

So the labor went well. I will post the labor story!!! Delivery ... was good ... painful. MiniJ .. well he is just perfect.

Older siblings ... love him! No jealousy ..STILL. They are fantastic and just as in love as we are.

School starts in 1 wk 2 days. I will have a 5th grader and a second grader. They, of course are sooo not ready to go back. Its early this year. We have a couple of camping trips planned.

Lets see .. I've been working out .. like crazy with an awesome personal trainer. (its free .. thats the best part) I still have a few lbs to lose .. less then 20 HA! I've just quit breast feeding. Was planning on doing it for 1 month .. then 6 wks .. well I made it 4 months - 3 weeks. Damn proud of myself. I do think however that the last few lbs have been holding on because of that. The verdict is still out since its only been a few days and my boobs STILL hurt. But between my diet and hardcore exercise routine - I'm hoping its that and not my age .. HA .. I turned 38 last month! Yikes.

Okay .. .March - had baby. severe anxiety over baby getting sick. Older kids were sicker this spring then fall/winter combined. Thankfully ... MiniJ was safe! One of the reasons I was breastfeeding for so long. Hijo went to moab for 5 days when MiniJ was 9 days old. Huge anxiety for me .. Post partum and all ... and doing it all alone with 5 kids. Mother *(FDKE(ER!!! actually it was my idea but still ...

April - tubes tied .. yippy. Went very well and not much pain. I have yet to have a period so I'll let you know how that goes .. Promise.

May ... Best friend's wedding. Fabulous - awesome - beautiful - romantic. So so great!

June - back to work ... MiniJ refuses bottle for the most part. STRESS .. GUILT. Hijo at home with 4 kids .. oh the last day of May was the last day of school .. HAHA. Hijo finds a routine and all is good. MiniJ takes bottle during the day and breast at night.

July - turn 38 .. routine for work is going well. Walking daily at work for 35 minutes. Lose a fewl more lbs. 20 year reunion time .. ugh! Start hard core work out routine. Been doing it for 3 1/2 weeks. Losing weight quickly .. but not quick enough for me. Start running at home on days off .. YES you heard me hahahahaha. goal set - run 3 miles without trouble. I'm not there yet. I did go at 6 am on friday. Boobs hurt way too bad to run .. walk fast and jog some but not much. Went about 2 1/2 miles. Very proud. The rest of the weekend.... nurse my poor breasts.

Start back up working out tomorrow.

Smiles - hugs!. pictures to come.

My family is complete!!! WOOT! YAY!!!

Happy Love

2008-02-14T16:42:00.003-07:00

Happy Valentines DAy

Long time no post?

the update ... I would love to be able to post more often. I love reading other blogs and catching up with other people's lives. I am just not a "writer" by heart. It is theraputic .. but time consuming and with 4 kids and one on the way I just get "stuck" mentally and at the end of the day can barely even think anymore. So .. I'll be on maternity leave soon .. i should have more time :)

The update

** I have 26 days till the scheduled induction date. Its a boy and he is big so we'll have him at 38 weeks! I'm so excited.

** did I mention I'm almost done being pregnant F.O.R.E.V.E.R.

** I got a huge promotion at work ... patting self on back!!!!

** I get 12 weeks off to spend with my family and this new big guy!

** BabyJ is great and enjoying preshcool. She is a pistol however and I have now first hand experience of the tap dancing/jumping/throw yourself on the floor screaming terrible 2 tantrum. Its really pretty!!!!

**Big B played tackle football this year and kicked butt. He is planning on playing baseball this spring and summer. He is doing fairly well in school .. I'd say B+ ...average .. but he is so much smarter then this that sometimes its hard to accept

**LittleB .. my social butterfly who cbannot.shut.up.in.class ... therefore has had 12 bad weeks out of 22 this school year. Its not that he is mean, defiant steals or anything horrible. He is just the class clown and the class lover and talker and wants to be everyone's friend. So hard to discipline this little dude ..

Well I will try and post at least weekly okay? Back to it.

Off to Texas Road House for a romantic dinner for 3 .. the boys are with their dad and babyJ will be going with us .. oh and will have to come up with a name for baby#4?? hmmmm

Happy Valentines Day!

Random Pictures = Proud Mommy

2007-05-28T10:11:00.001-06:00

Notice BabyJ's pink Mit ... ready to play softball!!!

BabyJ was trying to tackle BigB .. see how it worked out for her?

BigB's Field Day .. of course he took the GOLD ...

Memorial Day Mohawk

2007-05-28T09:55:00.000-06:00

Been a very lazy weekend at Casa MommyC. Movies, heely's, music and mohawks. Friday Hijo went to a buddy's to help him put air bags on his new van. So the kids each had a McD's gift card so we went there for dinner. Good thing they spent their own money because they didn't eat very well. I borrowed $1 from one of their cards for a side salad and then stole a nugget and cut it up over the salad YUM! Saturday we got up late .. I made a big breakfast then Hijo went off to a round of golf. I took the kids to a friends house to get their hair cuts. LittleB decided he wanted a mohawk and it looks incredibly awesome!!!! Came home to hang out and have drinks with a friend waiting for the guys to come home from golf, grilled some kabobs and just relaxed. Yesterday we gave BigB his heely's a few days early so that he could learn how to use them while we were home with no big plans. He argued for awhile till I made him sit down and read the online instructions. Then it clicked. LittleB got out his (he got a pair for his bday too) and cried while trying to figure it out. ugh!

Boring post however the weekend has been relaxing .. no driving. The house is clean, the laundry is done. Back to work tomorrow! I'd rather have boring then tragedy!

Can You Cook?

2007-05-25T13:34:00.000-06:00

1. Can you cook? Yes. I’m trying. I didn’t cook in my
previous marriage so I’m doing okay so far I think!!
2. Childhood dream? To be married to the love of my life, to be a social worker to help children, and of course to be happy. I have always wanted a ton of kids .. of course as I got older I knew better but alas a ton of kids for me is meant to be!!3. What talent do you wish you had? If it were actually possible to wish and get a talent, I wish I could program (as in computers).4. Favorite place? Outside in the sunshine with my family.
5. Favorite vegetable? Most of them .. I’m a veggie girl6. What was the last book you read? The House...7. What zodiac sign are you? Cancer
8. Any Tattoos and/or Piercings? Yes .. 4 & Belly & ears9. Worst habit? Procrastination10. What is your favorite sport? To watch on TV – Football .. to watch in person – basketball … to play – volleyball and of course any sport one of my kids is playing ~ they are so athletic11. Negative or Optimistic attitude? Both .. however my hubby says I’m a half empty kinda girl!
12. What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator? I'd hope I had my crackberry to play with. I get very bored easily.

13. Worst thing to ever happen to you? This is a tough one. I've been in terrible situations, and have lost wonderful people in my life. It's hard to quantify something as "the worst." No loss is good. I filled this out before I lost my baby and that is the WORST Thing that has happened to me L14. Tell me one weird fact about you: I think the day to day life is sooo hard but overall its so wonderful

15. Do you have any pets? I have a pain in the ass golden retriever! He is 3 ½ but still acts like a pup. Very frustrating. I wish he mellow out just a tad!
16. Do you know how to do the macerana? Yea *blush* I do 17. What time is it where you are now? 10:210 amw18. Do you think clowns are cute or scary? Yup.19. If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be??? Probably my belly … after I have baby # 4 I’m sure its gonna be even more “saggy
20. What color eyes do you have? Blue21. Ever been arrested? Yes! When I was 20 and was using my sisters id to get into a bar!22. What is your favorite drink? diet pepsi.23. If you won $10,000 dollars today, what would you do with it? Pay off some bills.24. What kind of bubble gum do you prefer to chew? Trident.25. What 's your favorite place to hang? At home with the family
26. Do you believe in ghosts? Yes definitely
27. Favorite thing to do in your spare time? I love to read! But spare time .. are you kidding me?
28. Do you swear a lot? Way too much for having small children
29. Biggest pet peeve? To be lied to L

30. In one word, how would you describe yourself? Tired

and the band plays on

2007-05-16T16:47:00.000-06:00

I'm recovering. Slowly but surely. I get hit in the face quite often by the little things. A pregnant woman, a baby crying, a phone call from the doctor ... and all the TV shoes lately have babies or issues with babies or something like that. It probably isn't different then any other time its just I'm more sensative to it. I had to have an emergency D & C last week because I wouldn't stop bleeding. NICE.

The kids .. they are absolutely wonderful. I love love love them! The are each so awesome in their own ways. BigB had his field day today. Beautiful weather and he won a Gold. Thats my boy. I got all blue ribbons back in the day. He takes after his Mom! LittleB's is next Week.

Today is BabyJ's birthday Eve. She'll be TWO tomorrow. She talks SO MUCH and so well. So much faster then the boys ever did. She can count to 12 or 13 depending and love Mickey Mouse Clubhouse.

Well Pizza is almost done but wanted to give a quick post. I really need to try and post daily. Its just lately I've had nothing to say and everything to say but yet no way to communicate it!!!

Hugs for me!

Goodbye my Baby

2007-04-12T19:25:00.000-06:00

I lost my baby .. April 3, 2007. Goodbye sweet baby! I love you.

Bullet Update

2007-02-23T17:40:00.000-07:00

I have to do this in bullets.

* I'm still sick. Thus no posts ... nothing in over a month. I just can't do it.

* I'm almost 12 weeks .. at 14 weeks the blahs usually go away. Cross your fingers for me that this time is the same.

* This kids are fantastic!! Knock on Wood. Normal stuff going on but nothing horrible. Thank God.

* My Step Mother is in the hospital. Its been a medical family since my Dad got GBS in 2004 .. seems like something is always happening. Lets pray that since she had surgery yesterday to take out her appendix .. that we are all on the road to recovery and the only reason we go to the hospital is for delivering this baby at 38 weeks!!!!!! not a day earlier! And the baby is healthy!!

* I have my amnio scheduled for March 14th. Prayers that that goes well too!

* I haven't picked up my camera since I found out I was pregnant. That sucks because I love pictures. I did, however, plug the battery in today. So that means I *should* take pictures soon!

* We are thinking of moving .. to another State ... within the next year .. kinda a 13 month plan. I'm excited but very nervous!

* Did I shock you with the last bullet??? I'm kinda still in shock too. 4 kids with no family in another state? But the only family I see here is on Hijo's side and my Mom. I will probably spend MORE time with my mom during visits .. seriously! I would also be a 5 hour drive from my Dad. Thats cool. Finding a new job after 13 years? that is scary.

* I cleaned my house today. And I did 3 loads of laundry. While working from home. Taking care of BabyJ ... and fatigued as all hell.

* My but ... upper hip muscles are killing me this pregnancy and I cry sometimes it hurts so bad!!!! any ideas? Tylenol aint cutting it. I think I'm going to get a massage and maybe even visit a chriopracter to see if that helps.

* BigB has been in therapy and seen a couple of psychiatrists. They have diagnosed him Bi-polar, ADD, ADHD blah blah blah. I took him to this expensive Shrink that didn't take insurance and he was WORTH IT> He really was thorough and said that BigB is hyper sometimes and does have some symptoms of ADD and his moods do swing .. however he CAN sit still and he CAN behave if he chooses. So the outcome is that he probably has Anxiety disorder due to the divorce and the timing of the split (4 1/2 years old) and that he is extremely intelligent and empathetic. So no meds .. YIPEE. He does want me to take him back to the therapist I used right after the divorce and have her teach him some coping techniques. I loved that therapist and he said why try someone new when he knows her, likes her and her therapy before was successful!!! plus she is covered by insurance and now I have a Doctors backing on the therapy and that I'm going in the right direction!! YIPPY! Good to hear from a well respected Doctor!

* I finally took the Xmas lights down. My choice is to take all Xmas stuff down either that night or the next day. But this year its been snow after snow .. some freezing temps., snow oh yea and more snow .. every week since 12/21 we have gotten snow. Anyways this week is the first week that I could actually take it down. There are still 2 strands out there stuck under snow and ice but the rest is down. Celebration! Just in time for another fricken snow storm. Enough with WINTER ... one of the reasons we want to move!

* Time to lie on the couch! *smooches*

Oh 70 pounds .. how I've missed you

2007-01-09T18:49:00.000-07:00

Oh yes .. I miss you .. every pound!!! NOT .. but yet I'm on the road to gaining 70 more. You see I gain about that much during pregnancy and well .... I'm at it again. Thats right FIVE kids. (one step) So that means I will be pregnant .. pretty much for 4 years total AND I will deliver FOUR children. lets see .. BigB was 8.14 ... LittleB was 9.2 and BabyJ was 7.11 .. I grow em big. Could be all the weight I gain

I'm Pregnant. I'm still in shock. We didn't plan this one. In fact, I got pregnant ON THE PILL. I wasn't on antibiotics .. I didn't miss one single pill .. We are that "1/2" of a percent that gets pregnant on the pill .. WTF? Anyways we are still in shock yet happy at the same time. Plus this is the year of the Pig .. very lucky!!! The next year of the pig doesn't happen until 2019!

Please pray for me that I don't get so hard this time with morning sickness!!

Blizzard # 3 .. cold snap #1

2007-01-09T18:47:00.000-07:00

had ANOTHER blizzard

this weekend was supposed to be #4 .. but now they are calling it a cold snap. Either way I'm ready for some stable weather. My front yard is covered with snow, the roads are icy and snow packed and I'm sick of it already.

brrrrrrrrr

Blizzard #2

2006-12-29T10:21:00.000-07:00

Yep .. in less then a week .. another blizzard is hitting us. Last blizzard left us with a whopping 27 inches .. give or take a few feet for drifts!!!! We weren't even close to being dug out and wham .. hit with another one. The boys left with their Dad yesterday and I waited very not patiently for them to get to his condo. Once they were safely there I finally relaxed. I hate for anyone to be out in this weather. The roads are horrible. Anyways .. I went and got a pedi/mani and it was awesome. I need the "me" time more then I needed the "cures". I only had to drive a few blocks to the nail place. After that I went and filled up my tank so that it wouldn't freeze in this weather. Came home made some hot wings and had a beer! YUM!

So we woke up to about 14 inches this morning. Supposed to get another 8 or so? NICE! Hijo just went out and started snow blowing the front areay. It should be fun .. NOT. He not only has to do our house but the apartment building he manages. He won't have to do that for a couple days tho! He hires someone for the main areas but he has to take care of the other stuff .. like the dumpster access etc. Pain.in.the.but!

BabyJ has her fisrt set of stiches (btw .. I have never had stiches) she is 19 months old! Anyways her hand was slammed in our front door and it just smashed it .. had to visit the wonderful germy ER. It was packed too ... but the wonderful Triage nurse rushed us to the front of the line for some odd reason(maybe because I was super nice and she was super tired and I complimented her .. not to get put ahead but because I could see how hard she was working?) Anyways we were only there 2 hours compared the the 6 hours she has quoted us if she wouldn't of pushed us to the front. Thank God too as I really didn't want to sit in the FlU filled petri dish and have all of us (all 5 of us) catch the nasty. Love HER!

And ... I'm also thankful that I"m still on vacation so I don't have to worry about work at all during these storms. I'm still logging into work and checking email and helping out when I can as I'm not out and about. Such a dedicated employee!!!

Welcome to the world Baby Girl

2006-12-20T09:24:00.000-07:00

My niece was born yesterday afternoon. She is a month premature. I guess my SIL went for a regular checkup and her heartrate was low. They sent her to the hospital and it was off and on .. on being the heartrate was good ... off it was slow.

So they decided to deliver her early. Right now she is on a plane to Portland because her lungs aren't all developed.

Huge hugs and lots of prayers for you baby girl.. I already love you so much and I just know you are a fighter!!!!

You have a huge family who loves you!!!!

Let it snow, let it snow .. LET IT SNOW

2006-12-20T09:02:00.000-07:00

The weather outside is frightful! Yikes . I had this week off and next week so I didn't have to worry about driving to work. I did get up early and showered to take the kiddos to school but as I was putting on my make up and listening to the radio, I heard that the school district had closed all the schools. so here we sit as a big happy family. BigB is in the loft watching Christmas Movies he Tivo'd. LittleB is in my room watchin NFL Network. Baby J is downstairs with me watching Sponge Bob on video now and Hijo is in his office. I have to wrap a few presents today ~ otherwise I'm all done. I do need to take the kiddos to the dollar store to buy their presents for people .. but not today. I'm not leaving the house.
Tomorrow is supposed to be their last day of school but I'm betting that'll be cancelled too. So maybe tomorrow we'll get brave and Hijo can watch the baby.

Friday we were planning on going to get haircuts .. but we'll see?

anyways I'm all bundled up ... and we are all warm ...Maybe the kids can have hot chocolate.

tis the season .. to be

2006-12-05T19:10:00.000-07:00

crazy ... fa lalalalalalalalala ...

I'm telling you .. I'm already done with the shopping part of the season. Its crazy and hectic and it makes me clausterphobic ....

Customer service? Is there such a thing .. ? we have had several instances in the past few days where we as the "customer" were treated like theives. I'm telling you they make you feel like shit when THEY are the incompetent assholes who don't know what they fuck they are doing.

Shopping experience #1 .. helmart. A quick in and out .. yea right. we didn't even have one christmas present .. just groceries and the only reason we went to helmart is that we use the parents ch*oice formula. You can only buy it there. So we bought other groceries but not much. We were there over TWO hours ... 20 minutes of shopping ... and the rest in line. Hijo said that I was lapped 4 times over in all the other lanes. The cashier was THAT slow. And when I got home after being so flustered and frustrated I looked at the receipt. She charged me twice for a printer ... So .. in order to get the money back . you have to GO BACK TO THE SAME GD STORE. Well I know that now .. but I called another one right on my way home from work to get the refund. She said of course we can help you come on in ... I get there .. wait in line AGAIN only to be told .. A. Of course we CAN'T do this. B. Of course the CSR Rep didn't tell you that. so I'm twice the liar .... So I called back the original store. Gave them all the receipt info and now I have to drive clear over there to get the refund. They fucked up .. yet I have to spend $$ on gas .. and my TIME which with 3 kids is valuable!!!! and I have to do all the work because they hire dumbass old ladys.

We should of just went home. But we braved it to Sams club to get a plasma TV. Bang .. find the one we want for the price that we want. Its a 50" plasma. I ask the helper boy for wall mounts. He points in a direction. I walk over there ... wall mounts only go up to 42". Go back to dumb boy. He says well we might have them did you look??? So I say ..can you go look. He says No he can't leave his spot cuz he has to stay there in case customers have questions. Am I NOt a customer? hmmm thought I was. He doesn't like my smart ass. I don't like his dumb ass. People just don't give a shit anymore and I'm so done with it. This is why I shopped mostly online. No dumbshit people to interact with. Just me and my baby (laptop)

So .. we go thru the line. We will get xmas money so we charged it and did the no interest no payments. However dumb cashier didn't do that and instead of saying I'll fix it I'm so sorry .. he says that I have to go and wait in LINE again at the customer service desk. ARRGHH

Then yesterday we go and buy a new washer and dryer .. same thing .. didn't get the no interest no payments .. same thing .. waiting to pay it off in January with bonus and xmas cash .... have to redo the transaction.

Luckily I'm almost done and only have stocking stuffers left. I've wrapped about 75% of the gifts but ran out of tape. Where should I go buy tape. Not brave enough for hellmart ..... arrghh

please tell me that someone out there actually cares that you are a customer and what happened to the customer is always right. these are just 3 of like 10 episodes in the past 2 wks ...

I am not a thief and I am not liar.

Bulletin update ~ Things on my Mind

2006-11-28T19:42:00.000-07:00

Family picture .. minus the dog and the step son

• Went to Phoenix for 5 days. Had a fantastic time and it was so relaxing. Got to see my Dad .. he was in a coma 2 wks ago .. so it was great to see him .. ALIVE. He is in chronic pain and was switching pain meds and it made him go into a coma. Very scary and very thankful that he is alive.
• Mom is mentally very ill. This has obviously been very mentally draining. She was with my brother for Thanksgiving and I had to pick her up at the airport today. She drains me so quickly. I don’t know what to do. I don’t want to be dragged into her depression yet I know I need to be there for her. She doesn’t want me to be happy. She wants me to drop my family for her??
• Thanksgiving was very nice. We played bingo and pictionary and ate great food.
• Got my Xmas cards all done … (well a few straggelers .. but about 60/75 are out.
• Hijo goes to Chicago for a wedding this wknd. I’m glad I’m not going. I don’t like the bride, the weather will be cold and I’m not ready yet to travel again with an 18 month old.
• While Daddy is gone. BabyJ will be losing her bottle! Go Mommy! The boys will be with the stupid EX dummy. I get them for a few hours on Saturday for my Company’s kid xmas party.
• Shopping for xmas is almost done. Only a few pressies and stocking stuffers to go! Thank God because I’m almost out .. well I am out of money
• BigB had horrible grades .. I’m very upset as he is brilliant .. but obviously LAZY!
• LittleB’s grades were terrific except for his horrible horrible hand writing.
• I still have 71 hours left of leave for the year and that’ll still allow me to carry over 40 hours into 2007. I will have the last 2 wks off of the year to spend with the kids while they are on vacation.
• Been fighting the EX dummy on child support .. he is always late and now wants a reduction. He is a pile of shit. This is also mentally draining and a huge time factor filling out all the paperwork and getting copies of tax returns, paychecks etc. Funny how he wants it reduced cuz I make more then him. I get punished because I can keep a job. He gets rewarded because he is stupid and gets fired over and over.
• Been fighting Hijo’s EX dummy. She is cookoo .. enough said.
• I miss Hijo’s son .. haven’t seen him in a long time and I wonder what he is up to. I would really like a relationship with him. Maybe someday? It breaks my heart that Hijo chooses just to not call him. I want to be with him and he isn’t even my son? Is it a Mom thing or am I just a tad off the rocker too? I have to respect Hijo’s wishes however I have been sneaking money into his checking account  I wish he could spend a bit of the Holidays with us  I just know that if he was allowed to spend time with us .. he would love us as much as we love him and want to be with us. I can’t believe a mother would do that to her child. No matter how much I hate my EX …. He is never bad mouthed to the children. And I never keep them from him.
• MY BFF came over for dinner this past wknd with her awesome boyfriend and it was fabulous! Friends make the world a much better place. Especially her. She is my ROCK! Love to you!
• I can’t stop eating crap. Time to get real and throw away the M&M’s
• It seems like I clean clean clean …I think I’m the only one. I cook, clean, do all the laundry, sweep, mop, and on and on and on. I’m the only one. I even clean dishes that I didn’t use. I leave every morning for work with a clean sink as I can’t have a dirty one before I got to bed …. But when I come home from work its to a very dirty sink  I’m so unappreciated. Woe is Me!!!!!
• Off to bed .. I’m tired
• To leave this on a good note. I was “forced” to work from home tomorrow  Its supposed to snow and I would of hated the commute. Thanks Job! I appreciate it.

No title necessary

2006-10-31T19:11:00.000-07:00

Pedicure

2006-10-30T15:23:00.000-07:00

Today the boys had the day off from school. So I took the day of to have a special day with them. Go figure they both act like jackasses and I wished I was at work then spending a "special" day with my preshus boys!!!

Well I had planned on taking them to the movies today. Taking babyj to daycare and then hitting a good kid movie. But I had to get my nails done .. they had all fallen off so I needed a complete new set. Hijo has plans tonight and I usually get my nails done at lunch by work .. but I needed something done ASAP .. so I decided to take the boys and let them get their first pedicures. THey LOVED it ... they didn't get polished but they got to sit in the massage chairs .. soak their feet .. get their toe nails clipped and then a good rub down. They were lovin it. I think I've officially spoiled them.

Now I need to go charge my camera because I'm missing some great shots lately.

We went to subway for lunch! Then we went to Open season. Then ... picked up babyj early and now we are home

and the boys are fighting again .....

welcome home

Twat Team

2006-10-29T12:30:00.000-07:00

Well I'm still recovering from lack of sleep and I'm soo soo tired ... my body hurts I'm so tired. But the day was successful. We purchased 3 liens on property. The owner has 3 years to reimburse us .. and if they don't then the land is ours. Each property had about 5-10 acres .. and all were awesome properties .. so if we score one then we are golden!!! It was really fun being at the auction. We got there so early and left at lunch to drive around to see the land and we just ate lunch in the truck. The roads were horrible and I got car sick on the way up .. during the lunch drive and the drive home. I'm such a wuss. But it probably didn't help with the altitude .. lack of sleep .. a horrible headache and instead of drinking water to hydrate myself, I drank beer! HA. But I took advantage of the opportunity to be gone from all the kids at once .. and I didn't have to drive. I didn't get drunk but it was just nice to not have to worry. I didn't get home till 7:30 pm and went straight to bed.

Yesterday I had to work from home all day to make up for the time I missed on Friday. I have a major project due at the end of the month so I worked all day. Since I worked all day I didn't get to work on my costume at all. Thankfully on the trip to the mountains us girls decided we were going to be a SWAT team and then as the beer kept flowing it turned into the twat team. I'll have to show pictures once I get some(forgot my camera) I'll upload some. The party was really fun. however we were home in bed by 11:30 which with the time change it was 10:30 .. LAME oldies!!! I slept really well last night and we didn't wake up till 8:00 which was really 9:00 .. all the kids did too... can you believe it.. how awesome is that. My niece came over and watched the kids. I had already put babyJ to bed so she just had to watch the boys. They watched a movie and had snacks. They were all crashed when we got home in the family room. BabyJ had just woke up ... so the timing was perfect. she wouldn't go back to sleep in her room so she slept with us .. but it worked out since she slept in so long! My brother in laws costume was priceless and I just loved it. Hard to explain so I'll just post pics when I get them emailed to me. CLASSIC! Hijo didn't even dress up ... lame ass.

Early Morning wake up Call

2006-10-26T20:40:00.000-06:00

I have to be at my friends house at 5 AM!!!!! I'm already tired just thinking about it. I think I'll put my makeup on .. in the car on the way up the mountain. We are going up to Fairplay, CO to bid on land that are deliquent on their taxes. We could get 5 acres for $50 ... Hijo has me bidding on like 10 different properties ..but there are gazads of properties that are deliquent .. these are the top 10. I can't believe people don't pay their taxes .. especially for only $50 or so per year .. they are KRAZY ..anyways their dumbass stupidity is their loss and our gain!!! Nice. Hijo was planning on going, however he has a appointment that he couldn't get out of. So I get to go and tag along with his buds and his brother! My friends too .. but this is their deal and their (Hijo, bro and friends) research and hard work. I just get to ride up their and Bid.

Since I'm missing work, I'll have to make it up sometime this weekend as I have a HUGE project due on Tuesday the 31st .. and of course I'm off on Monday cuz the boys don't have school .. and then I'm off 1/2 day on Tuesday so that I can attend the boys' halloween parties. So .. I'll be busy. BigB is done with football. and this is LittleB's last weekend of soccer. He has a game on Saturday and then a make up game on Sunday. Hopefully the weather clears up as we had a huge snow storm last night/today. I'd be happy with having his season over too. I want my Tues/Thurs evenings back and my weekends. Yawn. such a selfish mommy.

Here is a picture of BigB and his birthday buddy J ... J was born on May 30th 1998 a day before BigB. I went to the hospital to visit his Mom and checked in and had BigB that next morning ... well in the middle of the night. funny they played on the same team this year (kinda planned but still sooo awesome)

Look how much taller J is then BigB

Here is their Cheerleader (okay a bronco's cheerleader .. but isn't she cute)

Getting ready for hallowee n

2006-10-26T13:23:00.000-06:00

Halloween time .. fun stuff. I love how excited the kiddos get. Here is a picture of all 3 of them.

I'm BACK ... its an easy read

2006-10-26T13:18:00.000-06:00

GRUB-OLOGY
What is your salad dressing of choice? Lite Ranch
What is your favorite fast food restaurant? Taco Bell
What is your favorite sit down restaurant? Sullivans
On average, what size tip do you leave at a restaurant? 20 percent
What food could you eat every day for two weeks and not get sick of?
taco bell
Name three foods you detest above all others? raw onions, pico, sour
krout
What is your favorite dish to order in a Chinese restaurant? won tons
What are your pizza toppings of choice? Pepperoni,mushroom & jalapenos
What do you like to put on your toast? butter
What is your favorite type of gum? Trident

TECH-OLOGY
Number of contacts in your cell phone? 120
Number of contacts in your email address book? Same (for the
blackberry)
What is your wallpaper on your computer? Worm Computer Game (had it for
10 years)
What is your screensaver on your computer? Pictures of course
Are there naked pictures saved on your computer? No
How many land line phones do you have in your house? 3 I think?
How many televisions are in your house? 4
What kitchen appliance do you use the least? Toaster oven
What is the format of the radio station you listen to the most? All
types!!
How many sex toys do you own that require batteries? None!

BI-OLOGY
What do you consider to be your best physical attribute? Legs ..
specifically calves
Are you right handed or left handed? Right
Do you like your smile? I suppose.
Have you ever had anything removed from your body? Moles
Would you like to? OH yes .. my tummy! need a tuck
Do you prefer to read when you go to the bathroom? No. I normally want
to get in, do my thing, and go.
Which of your five senses do you think is keenest? None ..
When was the last time you had a cavity? A Long time ago
What is the heaviest item you lift regularly? Kids
Have you ever been knocked unconscious? Yes .. more then once

MISC-OLOGY
If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to
die? hell no.
If you could change your first name, what would you change it to? I
like it
How do you express your artistic side?I'm not artistic AT ALL
What color do you think you look best in? blue, pink?
How long do you think you could last in a medium security prison? Um 2
seconds .. I'm a baby
Have you ever swallowed a non-food item by mistake? yes.
If we weren’t bound by society’s conventions, do you have a relative
you would make a pass at? Um, ew no.
How often do you go to church? I pray all the time at home
Have you ever saved someone’s life? no
Has someone ever saved yours? yes probably

DARE-OLOGY
For this last section, if you would do it for less or more money,
indicate how much.
Would you walk naked for a half mile down a public street for $100,000?
In a fucking minute.
Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100? Sure.
Would you have sex with a member of the same sex for $10,000? Nope!
Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
Yes!
Would you never blog again for $50,000? Sure
Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000? Sure as hell would -
airbrushing though.
Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000? yes
Would you, without fear of punishment, take a human life for
$1,000,000? Do I get to choose who? Cause it could be free.
Would you shave your head and get your entire body waxed for $5,000?
maybe
Would you give up watching television for a year for $25,000? Are you crazy?? I love me some TV ... no way in hell would I give it up for a measely 25g

Random Thoughts

2006-08-19T11:18:00.000-06:00

Today is my Bestest Friends Birthday .. Happy Birthday Em .. I love you more then you know!!!!! I hope you have the best birthday ever and enjoy it to the utmost extreme!!!! You are the heart of my hearts and I wish you the happiest year and hope that they only get better from here!

Tonight we are off to the Zoo .. its my company's night out at the Zoo .. the weather isn't the best but hopefully its a fun night

We went to a swim park on Wednesday. Took BabyJ to daycare and I spent the day with just the boys. It was so nice and a much needed outing. The boys just had a complete blast! I love that place and can't wait to go back next year. BabyJ will be 2 and that will be old enough I'm thinking.

LittleB is still having night terrors. I just don't know what to do? Its killing me sleep wise. The other night LittleB woke up w/ terrors, woke up BabyJ and then about an hour later BigB came in with leg cramps .. ugh. I guess I won't catch up on any sleep for YEARS!

I've had a headache going on Day 5 ... nothing is working and it really makes me grumpy!!!

Off to get ready for the zoo ...

happy Birthday again Em!!!! Love you *kiss*

Driveby Update

2006-08-08T15:23:00.000-06:00

BabyJ has a fever and a cold
I had to miss a 1/2 day of work
Hijo is golfing and couldn't babysit
mad I have to miss work
but its his birthday so I guess he deserves it
he will probably be late for his own birthday dinner
I'm broke .. soo soo broke
Dummy lost his job AGAIN
so no child support this month
who knows when he'll send any?
LittleB has a cold too
I haven't slept
I'm sick of LittleB's nightly night terrors
Boys start school in 2 weeks from today
doing laundry right now
also trying to work from home as to not get behind
still have to take vacation time tho
Just went to the store and spent $50 on Airborne & Airborne Jr
charged Hijo's birthday present
I am also pmsing
sucks butt
sick of the family guilt
they suck and I'm trying to ignore them
but then they guilt me even more
its a no-win situation

camping and stuff

2006-07-25T19:49:00.000-06:00

We went camping this past weekend. It was allright .. not great but not bad either. BabyJ was sick so that was the not great part. She didn’t sleep well and had a mystery fever. We kept her on motrin and Tylenol. Sunday morning she woke up happy of course .. cuz we were headed home! But it was relaxing since we didn’t take the boys and very easy … not as much cooking, cleaning, packing etc. But I missed them like crazy .. they love to ride motorcycles and that’s what everyone did while BabyJ and I napped.

The first picture is of the tree that Hijo ran into and down that hill behind the tree is where his dirt bike landed .. He is okay .. but still .....we haven't been out together ONCE where he hasn't wrecked .. in fact he wrecks EVERY time he goes out!!!
The other two pics of our campgrounds .. one up close and one far away

Fighting with Dummy .. the ex. He has the boys for 2 weeks and once again is making shitty decisions. He is such a dumb ass!!! Right now he is at a concert. Nice of him to spend his time with the boys .. o that’s right .. just get a babysitter. I just don’t understand his priorities … I guess a concert is more important!!!!

I’ve been so exhausted lately. It seems like I can’t get enough sleep. No I’m not pregnant …. Maybe I’m having sympathy pains for my SIL .. she is due in January!!!

There is a golf tournament this weekend for my Highschool. It is mostly for the guys but of course one of my friends is rebelling and she has 4some already. I would LOVE to go .. however Hijo is going (we went to hs together . however didn’t date back then) Anyways … we don’t have a babysitter and he had already planned on going .. so .. bummer. Maybe I’ll stop by the golf course w/ BabyJ. Who knows … it seems like we see people from h/s all the time. I just LOVED highschool!!!

My Mom is healing great! Still tired .. but no setbacks on her stroke recovery! I’m so happy for her and for the fact that she can go forward now without having the surgery in her future .. its now behind her and she can continue to rehab and grow stronger! She is planning on taking a driving class at the rehab. That will do wonders for her self esteem!

Aneruism Surgery Successful

2006-07-20T19:01:00.000-06:00

Went to the hospital at 7:15 this morning. Why oh why are hospital folk so rude .. not all of them mind you .. but some. Like this guy at the FRONT DESK... hello you are one of the first people see .. and they are obviously stressed and in a situation they don't want to be in. Instead of being an ASS can't you be helpful. If its not your personality then get a new FUCKING JOB. It took me awhile to find out where my mom actually was. Finally found her ... and the first thing my brother says is . ."you know Mom has a 4% chance of dying today" WHAT? So I pretty much ignore him and go to my Mom and hold her hand. She is obviously very anxious and wants some good drugs STAT. Her Doc was very prompt and they came to get her at 7:55 for her surgeryat 8:00 .... I tell her to "have fun" while they are wheeling her into the surgery room. An inside joke as her loving and caring Mom .. my loving and caring Grandmother .. told her to have a good time last night???? hmmmmmm okay. Brain surgery .. fun .. new concept I guess. Funny that my Mom had her stroke on JAn 9th and my Grandma who lives an hour away still hasn't seen her? I don't get how my Mom came from her. My Mom however cookoo at times, has always been very loving, caring, giving all throuhout our lives .. to her children and to her grandchildren. My Grandmother has never even wished me a happy birthday?

So anyways back to the HAVE FUN! that was at 8:00 ... I didn't see her till 2:30 as I was leaving because I had to get home to Hijo to take over watching BabyJ as he had to get some work done today. I ran into my Mom on my way out ... she was finally on her way to the room. But once in the room it would of been another hour of waiting till they would of let us see her. So good timing for me. She only has to stay in the hospital tonight for observance. She is doing fantastic and was so happy that her brain, memory, functions etc wasn't affected.

So I got to spend the day with my Brother. Talking and talking. He and s wife are about 15 weeks pregnant. He is 40 and SIL is 38 .. this is their 3rd child. SIL is a wonderful Mother ..I envy her mothering abilities. Those kids are well loved and know it! So I'm excited for them. But all day he was doom and gloom telling me the P's only have so much longer to live on average and then add a stroke and GBS to the mix .. that just shortens their lives .. I told him I chose not to think about it and didn't want to talk about it. He kept on it all day. very emotionally draning.

So its nice to be home. BigB called from his Dad's to ask about his Grandma .. so sweet. We 3-way called her and that just made his day to talk to her and HEAR for himself that she was the same old Grandma and the surgery went great!

Still miss my Boys. I did get them for a few hours tonight and will get to see them on Mon, Tue & Wed after work for a couple hours. I will pick them up from daycare and bring them here till their Dad gets off work. Any time I can squeeze in with them is awesome for me!

runAWAY

2006-07-19T18:30:00.001-06:00

Ok .. MIA … I’ve been asked about blogging. And What happened? Well at work I can’t upload anything to my blog .. I can’t even view it. So this leaves at home time. With 3 kids … there isn’t any ME time .. so there is no blog time.

So .. I’m writing this up at work .. then I’m going to post it tonight at home.

Whats been going on you ask

Littleb turned FIVE. BabyJ turned ONE and BigB turned EIGHT. School ended. I started working from home 2 days per week … and that is DIFFICULT without any help … I get very stressed because nothing gets the attention it deserves. I scramble to Work, feed kids, try and entertain, give naps, feed bottles and clean clean clean. The house is forever messy with us all home. I end up working strange hours especially after the kids go to bed .. which sucks for me. AND I TURNED THIRTY SIX .. blah

The boys are with their Dad for 2 weeks .. so maybe this will give me a chance to catch up .. But I sit there lonely and missing them like crazy. This is just killing me to be away from them. I pick them up on Wednesday for a couple hours .. but then have to return them to the EX …..

Thursday my Mother is having surgery on her brain aneurism. My brother is coming into town and I am taking the day off. IT is supposed to be a minor surgery .. no cuts on her head ..all done via the groin area. Cross your fingers all works out.

Went to the spa on Saturday with my bestest ever friend ever. We chatted for hours and it was so wonderful. Being with her away from the daily stresses was more relaxing then the massage .. not that the massage was bad or anything. It was just great to sit, chat and have coffee, get massages and then come back to reality. Smooches to you BFF …. My heart belongs to you!

June .. what happened to June. Its already on the downside of summer .. I view the year as a big circle .. The summer being on the top …. And now after the 15th of July we are headed back down the rest of the year. And HOT its been so HOT so miserably hot here. I wish for it to be 75 degrees all the time …

We went on our 4th of July camping trip again this year .. however it held much drama for us.

Thursday the 29th of June I worked from home and packed the camper... Plan was to Leave at 2:00ish

We left about 3:30 .. not too bad .. met up at the beginning of the mountain with everyone .. Filled up w/ Gas

BigB decided that he wanted to Ride in our Friend 350,000$ motorhome . it’s about 35 Feet .. they were pulling all the ATV's in their 30 foot trailer attached ...

D (my 8 year old niece) and her friend J rode in there too.

We were coming out of a tunnel and its straight down hill..... We see Sean almost clip a semi w/ the trailer ..... Then our friend calls and states that they have lost ALL THERE BRAKES!!!!!

they have 4 miles of heavy traffic to go to the next run away truck ramp. He is in and out of traffic ... all 70 feet of him .. I'm in hysterics and I think in shock. I'm watching my son in a motor home that is out of control. We lose them around a corner ... then we see them FLYING .. literally all 70 feet in the air as they hit the ramp. I'm screaming .. Hijo is freaking .... its unreal .. I don't know what to do .......

they go 852 feet up the ramp .. then start sliding back down. I'm thinking they are going to roll over the edge ... then it stops ..... and I see the driver get out ... but no kids??? we had pulled over and Hijo was running up the ramp. I had to stay back w/ the kids .. plus I was pretty much in shock. Our friend calls to say the kids are okay and then I see them getting out .....

I lose it right there .. hysterically crying and thanking GOD. What a miracle I had just witnessed ....... when he hit the ramp . he was going 108 MPH .... NO BRAKES!!!

ahhh .... deep breaths. It took about 5 hours to get them back down and the Motorhome is TRASHED. The trailer has nothing wrong with it. But .. that is what insurance is for.

So they stay the night in the town we were closest too ... and then headed home the next day. We drove on to our friends house and made it about 3:30am. Hijo had so much adreniline that he made it just fine. I slept a bit ... but it was hard as I was pretty worked up too.

So all is good ... we are having fun. Then T my 13 year old niece (D's sister) comes running over all bloody and a HUGE bump on her eye and its already black and blue and she can't remember anything. She was riding her little sister's 4wheeler (identical to Littleb's) and flew off ... w/ NO helmet, in a bathing suit and flip flops ... WTF? Anyways .. we showered her off .. she had scrapes everywhere .. they took her to the doc in the small town and they ended up flying her out by helicopter to the biggest town Grand Junction and she had a cat scan .. all is okay . but still a reason to yell at those darn kids as to why they MUST wear a helmet!!!!!!!!!!

So that was amazing eh? I still think I’m feeling the effects of all the emotions .. it kinda put me into a slump .. and I’m trying to dig my way out. I’m just really blah! I always think of things and say .. “I should blog about that” .. but then .. you know I just don’t get the time to type up an entry! I will try harder and make this a priority. Since I’m in a slump .. it might help keeping the blog to get out my feelings a tad ? who knows? I should just see if it’ll help!

Happy First Birthday BabyJ

2006-05-17T15:31:00.000-06:00

Happy 5th Birthday LittleB

2006-05-17T15:14:00.000-06:00

Puke!!

2006-04-06T09:53:00.000-06:00

BibB caught it too ... and he is the worst puker EVER .. he screams at the top of his lungs the entire time ... and this is at 1AM .. he woke up the whole house!!!

NICE!!!! Yawn

Starting from here

2006-04-06T09:45:00.001-06:00

I’m not going to go back and explain why I’ve been missing .. but suffice it to say my life has sucked ASS lately! I’m just going to try and go forward and kinda kick start myself into blogging again so that I get some sort of release!

My Mom is doing fairly well. She has some mental loss .. but not too bad.
So I support my son in emailing everyone who truly cares for him …  This makes him very happy. He loves to get email …especially email with pictures, that he can place in his folder to add to his screen savor slideshow.

Everyone in the house BUT BigB had the stomach bug this past wknd. It was gross .. fricken nasty. Can you say musical toilets .. with the music being bodily functions? Standing there rubbing LittleB’s back while he puked .. then running and puking my self .. for 12 HOURS straight .. oh and in between that .. sometimes when you reach the toilet .. you don’t know whether to sit or kneel? Gross … fucking gross! Thank GOD we are behind that one. Phew. And we all are crossing our fingers that BigB doesn’t get it because his is the freakiest sick person … full blown NightMare on Elm Street screams … boooo!

On to some great news .. at least for me. Today my Valentines ring came in!!! It is a band to go with my wedding set. Right now it is getting sodered (not sure how to spell that) And I can’t wait to go back to the jewelry store at 3 to pick it up. This makes me extremely happy!!!

We just got back from a mini vacation and it was so awesome. We really needed it and we all had a fantastic time. It was very relaxing .. Even traveling with 3 kids. But the plane rides were great. The kids all behaved and I can’t wait to go back!!!

Soccer started too .. LittleB already has 13 goals in 2 games. He is my stud. Poor BigB hasn’t had a game yet due to cancellations etc. But .. practice 2x a week per kid .. leads to a very tired SoccerMommy!

BabyJ slept through the ENTIRE night last night for the first time in well … I don’t even remember! Can you believe it .. she is almost 11 months old … HA .. little stinker! But me and Hijo were up about 3 x each checking on her … it just freaked us out. *IT could be something I could get used to!!!

Well back to work .. thanks for checking in and I promise to blog more often

Love Ya!

Happy Belated Valentines Day

2006-03-09T16:00:00.000-07:00

with Love BigB, BabyJ & LittleB

Deep Breaths

2006-02-02T18:08:00.000-07:00

Okay .. sorry I've been ABSENT for so long. I have had a shitty Month and thank GOD its February as I fucking HATE January!!!!!!!!!!! I mean HATE HATE HATE it. Something always bad happens and this year is NO different. I swear in 2007 I'm breaking the curse and my next January will be the best EVER. I'm just thankful that January 2006 is OVER and I can now enjoy the rest of the year. It will all be downhill and happy news from here on out!!!!!

My Mom had a stroke on January 11th. Well I shouldnt actually give a date because we are not exactly sure WHEN she had the stroke. the 11th is the date that I found her .... that was a Wednesday. The last time anyone talked to her was on Sunday and it was my Son. So .. best guess is that she had the stroke on Sunday evening and she was there all alone in bed for 3 FUCKING Days after she had the stroke. I'm crying just typing this .. but I'm hoping it is somewhat theraputic to type it. I had called her on Monday, left a message, Tuesday, left a message and then Wednesday when I called and still didn't get ahold of her and she hadn't returned any of MY other phone calls I freaked. My brother was on his way to Hawaii so I couldn't ask him if he had spoken to her and she and my sister were still fighting. I called my husband and asked if he would go over there with me. We waited for BigB to get home from school and off we went. We got through the garage and both her cars were there ... but the siding glass door in the back was locked .. all doors were locked. I rang the door bell .. knocked, through rocks at her bedroom window and was yelling for her. I was on the phone with my sister all this time and she is freaking out telling me just to break a window and my husband was telling me that he WOULD get into the house .. He ended up drilling out the lock on the siding glass door. When I entered the house .. the smell almost knocked me to my knees. I had never smelled death before but I've heard it is bad. I looked at Hijo and was FREAKING when I hear my Mom yelling .. "HEY ..I"M UP HERE!" I ran upstairs and she was in bed and she had been in bed for days in puke, pee and poop. Thus the smell. She was coherent and was adament that she didn't want me to call 911. I didn't listen. I just called and told them to get the hell over there. I was hysterical. She wanted me to throw her in the shower .. but I was so afraid to touch her. I had NO idea what had happened to her and didn't want to make things worse. It seemed like the firetruck took FOREVER to get there. I was screaming, yelling, crying and telling my Mom how much I loved her. I was a mess! about 5 minutes after the firetruck arrived came the ambulance. All this time Hijo is keeping the kiddos out back so they wouldn't see what is going on. They took my Mom out in a sheet ... at that time I bet she weighed maybe ... 90 lbs .. she is soo tiny! And she was so dehydrated.

They took her to a local hospital and she stayed there for 3 days .. then she went to a rehab facility. She is progressing like the Champ that she is. She is sooo strong. Her left side WAS paralyzed and now .. she can walk (with help) and today she answered my phone call with her left hand! I'm amazed! They expect to release her in a couple of weeks .. we still aren't sure where to yet. Then she'll do day therapy M-F 9-3 and they will transport her. Nice.

She has minimal brain damage but they are going to put her on ritilan for her attention issue. They will keep her on it for a few months and then wean her out. I've been teasing her the she has ADD.

well I'm off to bed .. but that is where I have been. There are more parts I wish to share but not right now. This post was mentally exhausting. But I have to tell you that I have much more ... My sister has her own post, my brother has his own post ... and during all of this mess BabyJ had RSV ... that sucked ass too ...

so THANK YOU FEBRUARY! You are a wonderful loving Month

Christmas/New Years all in one

2006-01-10T19:44:00.001-07:00

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year

I've been neglectful!

Christmas was a blast with the kiddos this year. Santa was very generous to all of us! So was my family. We had a terrific time.

But ... the kids had a blast at home. We had Hijo's dad over and my Mom for Dinner. Ham dinner, which I cooked and it was awesome.

How boring is this post?

New years ... wow, I was in bed at 11:00 YAWN ... Boring. But I would rather have an uneventful holiday then one triggered with major drama! Happiness is enjoying each day.

So its already the 10th of January. Time is flying by. BigB is back at school finally. We are getting all gussied up this Saturday for the RODEO!

BabyJ is back at daycare .. which is good and bad. Its hard for me to let her go, but she needs the socialization and Hijo was dragging her all around town in the car, so she was spending way too much time in her carseat. This is best for everyone. But a tad hard for ME!

So like I mentioned .. BigB is back at school. The past 2 days he had brought home a note from the teacher about how grown up he seems and that he must of matured over the holidays. Goooo BigB. Mom's proud of you. LittleB has a cold and is Grumpy. phew .. does he get grumpy!!!

Well as I said this post is so boring, but my life is on an even keel. so for me this is good news .. just bad blogging material.

Chow!!!!

I will post some cowboy pics very soon

7 Months

2005-12-19T19:46:00.000-07:00

Baby J turned 7 Months on December 17th

She loves to scream and copy screams. She loves for me to kiss her little lamb and will make me kiss it over and over. She still doesn’t sleep through the night. She totally has everyone’s heart and is just the BEST.

Our 3rd Annual Xmas Parth

2005-12-19T19:40:00.000-07:00

3rd Annual Christmas Party

I’m so glad it’s over; however it was overall a success. Lots of drama … lots of tears, cheers and good times. We had over 100 people I’m guessing .. But thankfully not all at once. Our house isn’t that big .. HA

I think we went through more vodka, wine, beer etc then last year. And that was more then the previous year. Last year I didn’t drink …. Cuz of BabyJ .. So this year I was back in action. However, I didn’t do a shot .. Not One .. HEHE! I caught a good buzz and stopped. I think I was done about 10ish .. and didn’t drink another drop of alcohol. I went to bed at 3AM and took ½ an ambien. I left about 30 people with Hijo downstairs. I just couldn’t do it anymore. I woke up about 6:15 am and went and got Hijo … he was passed out in the chair across from Dana .. they were arguing and both fell asleep … classic. He could barely make it up the stairs. He stayed in bed until 1:00. My Mom brought BabyJ home around Noon .. and me and Lou were eating Big Mac’s and Filet Fishes from McD’s … and then we cleaned. Thank God for Lou … she is the only one who stayed and helped w/ clean up. I did the rest all by myself. Hijo was hung over until sometime today .. Eeks … he really needs to watch his intake.

Anyways it was very much like a high school party. Well it was like a mini reunion. Hijo and I went to high school together. His Brother and Wife also went there .. Well I’d say that 75% of the party was high school people. Funny .. and not so funny. Some of them to remain nameless STILL act like they are in high school. Shit .. we are in our 30’s and 40’s yet one “friend” shoved a broken wine glass in my plant. Are you kidding me? Are we twelve? He said .. well that’s where I found it….. so you consciencely put it BACK in the plant …I was speechless (not really .. I gave him an ear full) but still. Cleaning up this year was the worst of all the years. I couldn’t believe the lack of care and disrespect. At this point I’m thinking there won’t be a 4th Annual. I don’t know if I can do it. I do have to say that a bunch of dear friends did try and control the mess and did dishes and changed trash bags for me *dolls I tell ya* … so … some good and some bad. However it seems like most of my “dolls” helped and Hijo’s buddies made the mess and did the disrespect. Go figure.

So I’m still dragging major major Ass. I took a 2 hour nap yesterday … and went to bed early. Got up late .. thankfully I worked from home today. I did over 10 loads of laundry. I cleaned up all the dishes. I took care of 3 kids (BigB had to come home early cuz he has pink eye) Ran to get Hijo his last xmas present, the b’s Dad his stupid xmas present and then stopped by the pharmacy for BigB’s pink eye meds … and bought fried chicken for dinner .. (just couldn’t bare the thought of coming home and cooking on top of my day!)

So here I sit surfing the net, folding clothes and …. Yawning. I’m going up to bed after I finish BabyJ’s 7 month post & picture

Late

Santa picture

2005-12-08T20:11:00.000-07:00

Self ............ Breath

2005-12-07T20:35:00.001-07:00

take time to breath. I have to keep telling myself this. "Self, breath". It seems like I have not any spare time in my days. Chores, work, kids, husband .. you know the drill.

couple things on my mind.

the story .. backtrack to August 2005

My husband's brother's wife and I were pretty close. We got along great. She developed feelings for another friend Man(boy) and gave me the lowdown after her daughter her caught Man(boy) feeling her up & down. Nothing "else" physical happened that I know of. I don't want to know. One night camping, my niece (her daughter) came to me crying that she saw the Man(boy) touching her Mom inappropriately. She was so upset. I went and got my Hijo to hear the story. I was blown away. Hijo promised his niece that he would take care of it. We waited a bit but then he told his Brother about everything. Shit hit the fan .. SIL was mad at me .. (understandable, I did break her trust, however my husband comes first before anyone) She put me in a tough tough position. I knew if I told my hijo that he would tell his brother, yet how am I supposed to keep a secret from hijo? I can't, won't .. EVER! So I told, he told... BIL was obviously upset. Okay I've been ignored for the past few months. Not invited to the "gang's" functions, pretty much just left the fuck out (not even a tad bitter) So fast forward to Thanksgiving. Some of the "gang" went to a friends about 4 hours away. We stayed home. SIL, BIL and friends all went. Guess who else went .. said MAN (boy) Are you fucking kidding me. THey all went like nothing ever happened??? Okay .... BIL stick your head in the sand its your choice but Come the fuck on. What about your daughter ,, don't you think its a TAD wierd for her. Don't you think she thinks its very strange that he is there as their friend and all is okay now???? Okay I'm 35 and I don't understand. how is a 12 year old supposed to think that this is okay?

So this past Saturday night one of the "gang" had friends over for a couple of bdays. Me and hijo were not invited and actually didn't find out about it till yesterday. One of the friends of the group called to check up on me (LOVE HER) We chatted and she told me that said "Man(boy)" was there too? So I'm ousted because I tell about the emotional infedelity .. but the actual cheaters are okay to be around eachother.... WHAT THE FUCK????????????? I'm confused

so I tell myself, Self ... Breath!!!!!

Okay thought number 2 .... Breath .. deep, large, long deep breaths!!

so I tell myself, Self ... Breath!!!!!

On a positive note. I have the boys this weekend and I'm going to spoil them like crazy with time, love and attention!!!! I'm even thinking that next wknd I'll just keep them with me.Another positive ..
.I get to work from home for the next 2 days and I'm v. excited about it. I just tested connectivity for work and all is a go!!! DANCIN! I think after "work" I'll take the kids to see santa! hopefully I get to the mall and there isn't a line or anything .. cross fingers. If so .. I'll post a picture.

I'm Out
*smooch*

Santa's Outed

2005-12-01T20:00:00.000-07:00

Last night BigB asked me if Santa was real or not. WOW this already. I thought they found out at an older age. He is only 7. So I told him that it wasn't if Santa was "real" or not, it is what you choose to believe. To me, Santa is all about Christmas. In order for Santa to come to your house, you have to believe. You don't have to worry about whether or not he is real, but what his spirit means. It means that it is good to believe, to experience the Christmas spirit. To be with family, celebrate, love, eat, be happy. Family ... Christmas is all about family. I wasn't raised w/ religion so to me, Christmas is about Family. It is about giving, and being excited about giving and finding just the right present for that special someone.

I don't buy into the whole consumer part of the holidays. I don't spend a ton of money, but I do try and find the best present for the person. I enjoy the dinner, the time spent together, the look of joy on the kids faces, just family really

So .... I told BigB that if he didn't "believe" in santa, then he wouldn't come visit him .. but he would come visit Me, Hito, LittleB & BabyJ, because we "believe"

6 Months Today

2005-11-17T14:19:00.000-07:00

BabyJ is 6 months old today. She is happy, smiley and oh so cuddly. This morning I was feeding her a bottle at 5:30 a.m. Right after she was done ..I immediately put the binky in her mouth (a must) and put her on my shoulder to burp. She crawls up and cuddles into me. It makes my heart melt. She is such a hugger! I just sat there and took deep breaths so I could remember the moment and the smell of her. (she always smells so yummy)

She looks nothing like me except for her dimples. Otherwise she is a girl replica of Hijo. Brown eyes, brown hair … even her smile is just like his. When she scowls .. she is JUST like her Dad. Its funny!

She is the light of my life. I couldn’t imagine my life without her. I’m so proud that she is mine. Thanks Hijo .. without you I wouldn’t have my precious little girl!!!

She gets her first flu shot today .. it’s only a ½ a dose. I don’t want her to cry . It breaks my heart.

Happy ½ year Birthday BabyJ .. I love you with all of my heart and soul.

Ketch up ...

2005-11-15T12:33:00.001-07:00

Long time no blog? Sorry .. been very busy trying to stay afloat!

Life is as always, HECTIC ..
The kids .. they are absolutely wonderful and bring a smile to my face just thinking about all three of them!!! insert grin

Our trip/honeymoon was cancelled. We should just be getting home from Mexico. Hijo was in a wedding for one of his best friend. They broke up 2 ½ weeks ago and it has been such a mess. My heart breaks for him. He is a great guy and doesn’t deserve the heart ache, yet I can’t help but think there is something bigger & better out there for him. Kinda like for me … if my ex wouldn’t of cheated on me, I wouldn’t have my fabulous daughter and wonderful hubby. Everything happens for a reason. The heart ache sucks major ass .. but its worth it in the long run.

Played texas holdem this past wknd and I WON $100 .. NICE .. I rocked the house and was the only girl J Love winning .. especially to a bunch of boys! HE HE!

Work .. well it sucks but I don’t want to be dooced so I’ll just shut the hell up thank you very much.

Hijo wants another baby .. can I have 4 kids (5 total?) Last night I was getting all of the stuff in the garage ready for the Lupus pick up … and I kept all the boy baby clothes and maternity clothes .. Hijo asked why? Well .. you said you wanted another child .. and before we decide yes or no …. I’d better keep all that stuff so we don’t have to replace it if we decide to go ahead …. Too many great clothes to have to replace. I have great taste!

Oh .. and a funny for my middle baby …. Littleb. On our way to Taco bell for a well balanced dinner. BigB (my oldest) starts to talk about my first name. Littleb says “Her name is Mommy, just Mommy, nothing else but Mommy” BigB says “no .. she has a first name its …..” And Littleb syas “MOMMY .. that’s it I don’t want to hear about any other names .. she’s MOMMY”
So …I’m Mommy (which I love to hear) I’m just Mommy!!!

Teacher Conferences

2005-10-28T13:12:00.001-06:00

Yesterday I had teacher conferences for BigB. It went very well and I'm damn proud of my big guy. He is excelling in all aspects of learning. He is also very social and to quote the teacher "BigB has a very big heart". Ahh ... My heart melted when I heard that. He does have a big heart and tries to be so strong. He has been a tad needy the past few days as his Dad broke up w/ the latest girlfriend over the weekend and the boys were quite fond of her. She was very good to them. I'm sure to him it feels like a small divorce. One thing he just doesn't need. Should I put him back in counseling?
Anyways .. BigB is smart, nice and caring .. All great things to hear from a teacher! Sounds like my boy is growing intellectually just fine!

Halloween Picture

2005-10-21T14:00:00.000-06:00

Here are my halloween kiddos. They are very excited for Halloween this year!!!

Fight Friday

2005-10-21T13:56:00.000-06:00

Today is Friday ... aka Fight Friday. We have had fight friday in this department for YEARS ... it's a way to let off a little steam, get some good digs in and just let loose a tad. Today was a good one. It started out by asking a buddy what he was doing this weekend. He is currently serving a 90 day work release sentence .. hence he'll be in JAIL all weekend. Hilarious!!! Classic!

Went on a team building lunch (to Walmart) I had a ton of baby supplies to get. Formula, baby water, wipes, diapers etc .... And the gang decided to join me for a walk through the local Wallymarts.

Tonight we are going to Happy Hour. The boys will be with their Dad .. and the baby is going to my Mom's for a few hours. I won't be able to have more then one beer since I'm driving .. but it'll be nice to go and hang out w/ all my good friends for a few hours!!!!

The Wedding

2005-10-07T16:54:00.000-06:00

The wedding was PERFECT. Everything turned out good. There were only a couple issues .... but overall it was a huge success. We did get the margarita fountain. 7 gallons baby. we drank all but 1/2 a gallon. about 40 guests showed up.

Friday before the wedding, Hijo and I met w/ our wedding coordinator and walked the walk ... it was sooo long that I decided I couldn't walk down by myself like I had previously planned. I asked one of my great friends and Hijo's best friend and the person that reunited Hijo and I .. to walk me down the aisle. T was very excited and felt very honored that I asked him. We also met with the pool bar manager in regards to the fountain. In talks over the phone, it was a no go, however Hijo charmed her and we were golden. I had to order the fountain from a party place and the bar supplied all the alcohol and mix. They also got us a bartender for our cabana, so we didn't have to worry about breaking any drinking laws.

Friday afternoon we headed to a buffet and I think there were about 15 of us. We all got the runs from it .. blah. Nice huh? We gambled a bit, went and saw a house band and just caught up with old friends. I went to bed early and left Hijo playing craps (he was winning and I didn't want to jinx him) He came to bed about an hour later ... so it was a pretty early night for us.

Saturday the guys headed out for a round of golf. They didn't get back until 5ish .... I got a pedicure for $65 dollars at the hotel (and it wasn't worth $10) .. oh well. I also took a much needed nap. I have to steal this precious sleep moments whenI'm not with my kids. I got up, got ready and headed out with the girls after seeing Hijo for maybe 10 minutes. He went out w/ the boys that night for a semi bachelor party (since we were already legally married) We went to "Rain" .. got in line (bumped up ahead of most of the line .. thanks Lou) and still would of had to wait about an hour .. and spend $25 for their cover charge. I just can't pay that much to go drink $10 drinks .... so we bailed and went to Jimmy Buffet's margaritaville for a couple of margs and some nachos. Another early night. Hijo didn't stay out too late either and we were up in just enough time to get ready for the wedding.

Sunday, got up took a shower and headed to Lou's room to get ready. Les came over to do my hair. A couple funny things happened ... the best however was us grabbing a quick smoke in the hallway and the fire alarms going off for the whole 7th floor .. CLASSIC. Luckily we didn't get busted. Once the alarms went off we RAN as fast as we could to the elevators .. passing the security people saying .. "hey we are soo late for the wedding" HAHA . Here is Lou's Take on Vegas

http://emilyinthecity.blogspot.com/2005/10/fire-fire-alarms-break-throughs.html

The renewal vows were beautiful, the sun was shining .. ALL was wonderful!!!!

Wedding Picture

2005-10-07T14:43:00.000-06:00

Here is a quick picture of our wedding day!!

StepSonN

2005-09-23T10:49:00.000-06:00

StepSonN is kid number 1 for Hijo and kid # 3 for me. (thus me having 4 children) Hijo had StepSonN when he was 18 .. one month shy of 19 years old. His girlfriend at the time was a senior in highschool. They had problems .. lots of problems. (well duh .. they were teenagers). They were off and on for about 3 years when she said .. either you are with me or you don’t see either of us. She disappeared and we now know she was married right afterwards. She legally changed StepSonN’s name to her husband’s last name. Hijo looked for him alot. When we started dating, I looked for him. Even paying an online service to locate him. Nothing. I even called her parents house .. oh and they were RUDE!!!

So last August out of the blue .. the EX aka … CK for CooKoo called Hijo. She located him in .. hmmm about FIVE SECONDS. Wasn’t too hard to find him. Plus she told Hijo that she talked to people who saw him all the time.. so she kept tabs .. NICE. She kept StepSonN and Hijo apart for 13 fucking YEARS … Are you kidding me?

Now I know how it is to have an ex and to have child(ren) .. its hard .. very hard. Its work to not bad mouth the ex … but its worth it to make your children feel loved, accepted, whole and most of all secure within themselves. There are definitely times I would like to keep the kids away from my ex .. but I don’t .. because they need a Dad … whether he sucks or not .. he is their Dad and they need that. Period .. OFF RANT

So in August of 2004, she calls out of the blue and here comes the emotional roller coaster. StepSonN is a very sweet boy. He was very excited at first to spend time with Hijo. After about a month of some one on one, Hijo brought StepSonN home to meet me, the kids, and his Father (StepSonN’s Grandfather) She flipped … major flip out. She didn’t want him to meet us. Are you kidding me .. we are his family whether she likes it or not?? …She wrote Hijo this big old love letter about always wishing they could ride off into the sunset (insert cookoo noise) She pulled StepSonN from Hijo after that night.. so we hired a lawyer … We didn’t see StepSonNn again till his 16th birthday on July 4th. Court was on 5/16 .. one day before we had BabyJ. It went very well as she as asking for back child support and hospital fees … We owed a minimal amount of back support and had to start paying monthly child support for 2 years till StepSonN is 18. Worth it. Hijo never not wanted to pay support .. he ALWAYS wanted to share a life with StepSonN and she kept that from both of them. She is really a piece of work ….To me, your child should ALWAYS come first!

We get to see him very rarely. She wouldn’t allow him to go camping with us .. or dirt bike riding .. We get to take him to lunch every once in awhile.. oh and we take him shopping (which she wasn’t happy about either?) Nothing makes this woman happy.

StepSonN switched school this year. He is now going to an alternative highschool. The school seems pretty with it … BUT you have to use the school to its full potential. The classes are only in the mornings. In the afternoon you “should” be going to a tech school like warren tech, or working. Both give you credits towards graduation. He isn’t doing this. Makes me sad that she has no expectations of him to succeed. Hopefully me andHijo can give him some self confidence and get him to graduate and go on to college. We told him that if he gets a 3.0 gpa AND takes his driving classes, that we will buy him a car and pay for insurance. I really hope he does this. He can succeed .. HE CAN!

The kiddos

2005-09-22T09:52:00.000-06:00

Littleb, BigB & BabyJ

Vegas Prepas

2005-09-22T09:15:00.000-06:00

Getting prepared for Vegas. We are going to Vegas with 40 or so of our closest friends. We leave on the 30th. We are renewing our vows on our 2nd anniversary. You see we got “common law married” back on October 2nd 2003 .. we had been together 6 months and had been living with each other for a month and a half. We went fast .. very fast. However I have known him for years and have always had the hots for him. Well he is a hottie after all. We planned BabyJ. She took about 4 months … 1 month of some good old daily sex! My family was not happy that I was not married and pregnant. But you see .. I did it “right” the first time. Met a man, fell in love, got married, had 2 kids .. right after 2nd kid hit his first birthday .. said man had affair. Not all that it is cracked up to be. So I wasn’t so anxious to do it “right” again. I trust Scot .. I never worry about him cheating on me. I just think that it doesn’t have to work a certain way anymore. Life is life and you really can't plan and you can't expect ... I am much more mellow and go with the flow now.

We said our vows and got officially married on April 18th. That is our 2 year anniversary of me calling him up one late Friday night .. asking what he was doing and inviting him over (1 hour drive) for a beer. We’ve been together ever since. How romantic!

Back in April, I was 9 months pregnant and if you do the math .. we didn’t even hit 1 month before babyJ was born. HA! Since I was SOOO Huge .. I only wanted Family at the wedding. Thus leaving out lots and lots of wonderful friends. So we decided to have a big party in Vegas and celebrate with all of our friends. In fact, the only family going is Hijo's Brother and my best friend Lou (she is family afterall .. she did make it to the first wedding)

I really wanted to do Dr Suess Vows in Vegas .. but the won’t let me! Wouldn’t that be awesome … here is a taste

Pastor: Will you answer me right now These questions, as your wedding vow? Groom: Yes, I will answer right now Your questions as my wedding vow. Groom: Yes, I take her as my wife, Yes, I'll love her all my life. Pastor: Will you have, and also hold Just as you have at this time told? Groom: Yes, I will have, and I will hold,Just as I have at this time told, Yes, I will love her all my life As I now take her as my wife. Groom: Yes, I'll love through good and bad, Whether we're happy or sad, Yes, I will have and I will holdJust as I have already told, Yes, I will love her all my life,Yes, I will take her as my wife! Pastor: You're married now! So kiss the bride, But please, do keep it dignified.

Isn’t that AWESOME…. But the Flamingo in Vegas won’t let us pick our vows … too bad .. that would be awesome.

We are trying to get a margarita fountain. Our first “official” date (besides the night over for a beer on 4/18/2003) was a Jimmy Buffet concert. S is my “Mexican cutie”. If we can’t get the fountain .. which it its lookin 50/50 then we’ll do toasts with Margaritas .. how fun!!!!

BabyJ is staying with my Mom. She is very excited to have some one on one with her. The boys will be with their Dad …

More on Vegas later. Back to work

4 Months Old

2005-09-17T17:09:00.000-06:00

Today my baby girl is 4 months old. I find it so hard to believe. She has quite the personality and really is just a joy. She makes me very happy. She sleeps fairly well. We just got over her first cold. It was a doozy .. but she handled it pretty good. She is just a doll and is a very happy baby.

The boys are 7 & 4. They are wonderful with her. They haven't been jealous .. yet. We have a 1 1/2 year old golden retreiver. He is so hyper .. but fun too. He is the most jealous of everyone. but he is very protective of her (and the boys) and lets the boys wrestle with him, steal his food.

All my kiddos were born in May. (I must be very fertile this time of year .. September) I'm making sure to take extra precautions right now as I am done having children. I could have a ton. Labor & Delivery are a cake walk for me (not easy ....by any means) but much easier then 10 months of pregnancy. My pregnancies were all hard .. not medically hard so I really shouldn't complain. But I get so damn big. 62 lb gain with my first BigB ... 58 with my second Littleb and not positive on babyJ .. but I'm guessing in the high 60's and I had her at 38 weeks. I have lost all the weight but the last fricken 10 pounds. I'm working on those though. I get so big it hurts. My nose grows 3 x the normal size .. if not bigger.

Okay ... the last pregnancy was the easiest .. which is odd at 34 1/2 ... but I made it and got my girl.

Today I had 2 soccer games. They are fantastic athletes. BigB my oldest scored 1 goal and littleb my middle one scored 2. They are naturals I tell ya. Must of got it from my side as their Dad isn't too athletic. He likes to think he is .. however I used to kick his ass at volleyball. Thats all from me baby.

well babyJ is crying .. back to Mommy land!!!

will post soon

This & That

2005-09-17T10:11:00.000-06:00

I am going back and forth on whether or not I should have a blog. Everyone's doing it .. what harm can it cause? If my family got ahold of my thoughts .. baboom .... Trouble with a capital T! So I just won't give it to them. Thankfully my family isn't very computer literate .. :) Except for my hubby (Hijo) ... but he doesn't have time to read about feelings. Let alone feel them! He is a terrific husband though. I shouldn't bash him as I love him dearly and intensely. This is my second marraige. My first husband decided it was fun to start dating the secretary (we all worked together including her husband) Nice year that was. I ran into my current husband S right after I got separated. We had known eachother for roughly 19ish years (went to highschool together) and dated in our early 20's. He had told me NOT to marry my first husband. All well and good except I wouldn't have my 2 perfect sons. That was the only thing that marraige was about. My 2 beautiful boys! They have soccer games today .. so rush rush. Hubby is out riding dirt bikes. Baby just started napping. So I was going to sit down and post a huge one ... but alas I must get ready for the games. I told you it wasn't about me!!!!

Will post later today about my daughter. Today she is FOUR months old and a terrific little girl. She is the BOMB!

Defining The May Maker

2005-07-20T10:49:00.000-06:00

it took me a long time to define a "name" for my blog. What defines me? All three of my children were born in May. I realized that the only thing right now that defines me are my children and my husband. Not much else. They come first and then if I have a minute at the end of the day ... then its my turn. Lets see that gives me enough time to brush my teeth and clean my face. Oh Joy. A litte bitterness to this first post eh? It would all be better if just maybe a fraction of my life would be appreciated. Maybe just the fact that I work my ass off for my family and not only is it all expected ... its expected in a timely fashion .. LIKE NOW .. RIGHT NOW! This picture is the latest May baby. She is now 2 months old and her name is BabyJ. Her "2nd" middle name is Harry :)

Here we go!!!!