6 Months Today

BabyJ is 6 months old today. She is happy, smiley and oh so cuddly. This morning I was feeding her a bottle at 5:30 a.m. Right after she was done ..I immediately put the binky in her mouth (a must) and put her on my shoulder to burp. She crawls up and cuddles into me. It makes my heart melt. She is such a hugger! I just sat there and took deep breaths so I could remember the moment and the smell of her. (she always smells so yummy)

She looks nothing like me except for her dimples. Otherwise she is a girl replica of Hijo. Brown eyes, brown hair … even her smile is just like his. When she scowls .. she is JUST like her Dad. Its funny!

She is the light of my life. I couldn’t imagine my life without her. I’m so proud that she is mine. Thanks Hijo .. without you I wouldn’t have my precious little girl!!!

She gets her first flu shot today .. it’s only a ½ a dose. I don’t want her to cry . It breaks my heart.

Happy ½ year Birthday BabyJ .. I love you with all of my heart and soul.

BiPolar

Do you know anyone that is bi-polar? Well I think (strike that .. KNOW) my sister is. Once again she is freaking the fuck out. You see this happens EVERY time my Father comes into town. The reason for the latest trip was to meet his youngest grandchild, my daughter BabyJ. He has GBS (I’ll do a separate post on this) and is still recovering and can’t walk very well. So he stays at my sisters since she lives in a ranch style house. Well he is coming in for Thanksgiving. He gets here Wednesday afternoon. My sister is picking him up. She is a control freak and wants it that way. Whatever, I could give a shit. Thanksgiving was supposed to be at her house. I am now having one too. I can’t continue to play these stupid idiotic games. I invited my Dad over for dinner on Wed night. Thats it .. that is what started this whole GD thing. How dare I do you ask? You see I invited him yesterday afternoon on my way home from work. It’s the only time I can talk on the phone uninterrupted. No kids yelling at me. Once I get home from work it’s mass chaos all the way up until Bedtime. I never talk on the phone during that time because .... well its just useless. So I asked my Dad to dinner .. WTF?

My sister calls me at 5ish … and flips the fuck out and "how dare I ask my Dad to dinner and not notify her?" Are you kidding me. I planned on inviting her and her family over too .. but not until today. I was very busy with my family and knew I wouldn’t be able to call her. She must of talked to my Dad …

So why does she flip the fuck out that he is coming to dinner at my house you ask? The whole purpose of his visit was to see my baby. Yet she is controlling the whole wknd and I can’t even have him over to my house. Something this stupid happens EVERY time. Usually its because she wants all the dinners at her house and wants me to pay for ½ of the fucking grocery bill. Who invites family over for dinner and expects them to pay?
So I’m very frustrated. She wins .. she can have Dad all to herself. I’m not playing the game this time. I’m staying home for Thanksgiving and cooking my own fucking turkey and spending my money on the food I want. I will go visit my Dad at her house for a couple of hours with the kids .. but I’m not spending the day there. God forbid I have a relationship with my Dad Without Her.

Last time he was in town for my WEDDING .. yet she controlled the whole weekend and still threw a fit and didn't talk to me for months after. In fact she didn't see BabyJ till she was 2 months old .. and I had to call her and invite her to see the baby ..... can you say COOKOO

Ketch up ...

Long time no blog? Sorry .. been very busy trying to stay afloat!

Life is as always, HECTIC ..

My stupid ass stupid ass (did I say stupid?) dumb ex husband .. lost another job .. so the child support roller coaster starts again. He is already in arrears … and I should feel sorry for him .. are you kidding me?.?. Keep a fuking job. Get to work on time. Be a responsible 35 year old and don’t go to work on a hangover all the time. Every once in awhile is probably okay .. but not every fuking day. And NO .. I am NO LONGER YOUR SHOULDER to cry on …. Go find some young thing to nurture you … that ended years ago for me ………………END Rant

The kids .. they are absolutely wonderful and bring a smile to my face just thinking about all three of them!!! insert grin

Our trip/honeymoon was cancelled. We should just be getting home from Mexico. Hijo was in a wedding for one of his best friend. They broke up 2 ½ weeks ago and it has been such a mess. My heart breaks for him. He is a great guy and doesn’t deserve the heart ache, yet I can’t help but think there is something bigger & better out there for him. Kinda like for me … if my ex wouldn’t of cheated on me, I wouldn’t have my fabulous daughter and wonderful hubby. Everything happens for a reason. The heart ache sucks major ass .. but its worth it in the long run.

Played texas holdem this past wknd and I WON $100 .. NICE .. I rocked the house and was the only girl J Love winning .. especially to a bunch of boys! HE HE!

Work .. well it sucks but I don’t want to be dooced so I’ll just shut the hell up thank you very much.

Hijo wants another baby .. can I have 4 kids (5 total?) Last night I was getting all of the stuff in the garage ready for the Lupus pick up … and I kept all the boy baby clothes and maternity clothes .. Hijo asked why? Well .. you said you wanted another child .. and before we decide yes or no …. I’d better keep all that stuff so we don’t have to replace it if we decide to go ahead …. Too many great clothes to have to replace. I have great taste!

Oh .. and a funny for my middle baby …. Littleb. On our way to Taco bell for a well balanced dinner. BigB (my oldest) starts to talk about my first name. Littleb says “Her name is Mommy, just Mommy, nothing else but Mommy” BigB says “no .. she has a first name its …..” And Littleb syas “MOMMY .. that’s it I don’t want to hear about any other names .. she’s MOMMY”
So …I’m Mommy (which I love to hear) I’m just Mommy!!!